It was a heavy feeling.
That's the best way to describe it.
It wasn't major headaches and
migraines and that sort of thing.
It was mostly like a dull ache
around my ear.
I thought it might have been
an ear infection maybe.
But when the sight started going,
that worried me more.
Then I thought I was getting
because my sight was affected.
It was definitely getting worse.
The consultant ophthalmist said,
"I'll send your for an MRI scan
to exclude some things."
Never did I imagine it would turn
to be what it turned out to be.
An hour later, they actually rang me.
I was quite surprised
that it was so quick.
The ophthalmist who had sent me
for the scan,
she told me,
"You've got a brain tumour."
For once in my life,
I was stunned and lost for words.
It was as if somebody
had hit me in the chest.
I couldn't breathe. It was such a shock.
I was on my own
when I was told this as well.
So for several minutes,
I just sat there in utter disbelief.
I just couldn't imagine it.
As far as I was concerned, does that
mean I'd be dead in a few weeks?
Brain tumours are a taboo subject.
They're not talked about a lot.
The biopsy is called transsphenoidal.
They go up the nostril
and take away a part of the tumour,
the most accessible piece,
bring it back down the nose
and send it off for biopsy.
It usually takes two or three days
for that to come back.
And then, it was almost ten days later
that they actually felt I was ready
to have an operation
called a craniotomy.
But they couldn't take it all out.
They had to leave residual
because it was too dangerous to do it.
The risk of paralysis,
All sorts of things could have happened
because the tumour was actually
around the carotid artery.
After several months of them not
quite where to go with this...
They knew I wouldn't need
It wasn't appropriate for that.
They knew I would have
to have radiotherapy
to alter the DNA of the tumour
and to stop it from regrowing.
After the radiotherapy,
I had my recent scan,
which was middle
to the end of March this year.
It was the same. It's still stable.
It's still indolent.
It hasn't changed at all
since the end of the radiotherapy.
Obviously, for now, it's stable.
It's done what it should have done.
Hopefully, it will remain so.
The legacy of having this brain tumour
is that still, on a daily basis,
I'm aware of it.
Although there's only a bit of
and I've had the radiotherapy,
the radiotherapy and the operation
have left me with some complications.
But I'm back at work now, full time,
I manage to have a good social life,
I can drive again now,
which is a huge bonus.
Slowly, all that was taken away
is now coming back.