Bipolar disorder 

Introduction 

Bipolar disorder

Bipolar disorder, formerly known as manic depression, is a condition that affects your moods. An expert talks about symptoms and diagnosis, and explains the different treatments that are available.

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Next review due: 16/09/2015

Bipolar disorder and driving

If you have bipolar disorder, the condition may impair your driving. You must inform the Driver and Vehicle Licensing Agency (DVLA) about any medical condition that could affect your ability to drive.

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Bipolar disorder, formerly known as manic depression, is a condition that affects your moods, which can swing from one extreme to another.

If you have bipolar disorder, you will have periods or episodes of:

  • depression  where you feel very low and lethargic
  • mania  where you feel very high and overactive (less severe mania is known as hypomania)

Symptoms of bipolar disorder depend on which mood you are experiencing. Unlike simple mood swings, each extreme episode of bipolar disorder can last for several weeks (or even longer), and some people may not experience a "normal" mood very often.

Depression

The depression phase of bipolar disorder is often diagnosed first. You may initially be diagnosed with clinical depression before having a future manic episode (sometimes years later), after which you may be diagnosed with bipolar disorder.

During an episode of depression, you may have overwhelming feelings of worthlessness, which can potentially lead to thoughts of suicide.

If you're feeling suicidal or having severe depressive symptoms, contact your GP, care co-ordinator or local mental health emergency services as soon as possible.

If you want to talk to someone confidentially, call the Samaritans on 08457 90 90 90. You can talk to them 24 hours a day, seven days a week. Alternatively, visit the Samaritans website or email jo@samaritans.org.

Mania

During a manic phase of bipolar disorder, you may feel very happy and have lots of ambitious plans and ideas. You may spend large amounts of money on things you cannot afford and would not normally want.

Not feeling like eating or sleeping, talking quickly and becoming annoyed easily are also common characteristics of this phase.

You may feel very creative and view the manic phase of bipolar as a positive experience. However, you may also experience symptoms of psychosis (where you see or hear things that are not there or become convinced of things that are not true).

Living with bipolar disorder

The high and low phases of bipolar disorder are often so extreme that they interfere with everyday life.

However, there are several options for treating bipolar disorder that can make a difference. They aim to control the effects of an episode and help someone with bipolar disorder live life as normally as possible.

The following treatment options are available:

  • medication to prevent episodes of mania, hypomania (less severe mania) and depression – these are known as mood stabilisers and are taken every day on a long-term basis
  • medication to treat the main symptoms of depression and mania when they occur
  • learning to recognise the triggers and signs of an episode of depression or mania
  • psychological treatment – such as talking therapy, which can help you deal with depression, and provides advice about how to improve your relationships
  • lifestyle advice – such as doing regular exercise, planning activities you enjoy that give you a sense of achievement, as well as advice on improving your diet and getting more sleep

It's thought using a combination of different treatment methods is the best way to control bipolar disorder.

Help and advice for people with a long-term condition or their carers is also available from charities, support groups and associations.

This includes self-help and self-management advice, and learning to deal with the practical aspects of a long-term condition.

Find out more about living with bipolar disorder.

Bipolar disorder and pregnancy

Bipolar disorder, like all other mental health problems, can get worse during pregnancy. However, specialist help is available if you need it.

Read more about bipolar disorder in pregnancy.

What causes bipolar disorder?

The exact causes of bipolar disorder are unknown, although it's believed that several things can trigger an episode. Extreme stress, overwhelming problems and life-changing events are thought to contribute, as well as genetic and chemical factors.

Who is affected?

Bipolar disorder is fairly common and one in every 100 adults will be diagnosed with the condition at some point in their life.

Bipolar disorder can occur at any age, although it often develops between the ages of 18 and 24. Men and women from all backgrounds are equally likely to develop bipolar disorder.

The pattern of mood swings in bipolar disorder varies widely between people. For example, some people will only have a couple of bipolar episodes in their lifetime and will be stable in between, while others will have many episodes.

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dye said on 31 August 2014

i forgot to mention the over sexed ness and the paronoid lol i think it! i think your trying to poison me or i know a camera is watching me (in my own bedroom) but i dont freak out about it i just acept that i think that and im paronoid! i also cant shut up some times i can hear myself yabbing on but cant stop i am a totally self absored friend to have sometimes (not that i have many friends with being antisocial ,and quite often me being emotionally numb ,but sometimes im so quiet and i want to shut myself way which then seems to start a cycle for me of becoming more depressed and numb towards others

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dye said on 31 August 2014

i was a very unhappy child, teenage years spent self harming self medicating being very jelouse and volatile ,i ended up pregnant at 16 , went totally crazy in my early 20s thought i was great slept around but also very dipressed if that makes sence flipping from messed up high to lowi couldnt hold a job down i suffered from really bad anxiety and avoided stiuations which i tried to mask with drink which would lead to more sleeping around , i was saved by a man in my mid 20s who has totally tolarated me kicking him in the mouth throwing things at him flipping out at him throwing his clothes out and my evil mouth .20 yrs later we are still together because im not like that all the time ,i cry im a perthetic wreck in a corner or im cleaning everything and not sleeping ,my last depressive state was 2yrs ago it lasted about 1 half years wishing i was dead (drinking and self medicating on a daily bases) then i started the i love myself sleeping around ,i dont need you stuff ,then i was bk depressed because of what i had done and that just isnt me (because when im normal im so laid bk and funny and moral )ive never been diagnosed i struggle to get help and at the moment im pretty level headed but the waking at stupid oclock has started again .Am i bipolar or just nuts???

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worthmuchmore said on 27 August 2014

Hi Two halves, I read your post today, I wish I had sooner. You are a Genuinely Good Man, a shining light that I hope still shines as bright today, anyone who sees children as 'icing on the cake' is so very very special. Sometimes breakthroughs take a bit longer than we'd hope but they truly do happen. You are not a parasite, and always always believe in what is right, always. If it feels right it still is. Such raw, intense emotions are incredibly frustrating. I personally had an array of 'issues' and I only managed to tackle them fully this weekend because I still believed in what I was told by a very, very bad man. The release was incredibly powerful and I found what is in my heart. Follow yours and not your head instead. :)

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easy11 said on 16 August 2014

Hi all,

I was diagnosed 2 years ago and didn't get treatment. I refused diagnosis. Recently I have firmly accepted. I take medications. I am now more relaxed. I take amino acids - 5 HTC, l tyrosine, l cysteine, and selenium to avoid depression. I also take lemon balm, passion flower and skullcap complex to avoid mania!

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twohalvesofawhole said on 15 August 2014

I try all the time to hide how i feel. I have 2 small children (icing in the cake) a partner i love, money, new house and health. But i will never be able to admit how i feel sometimes. Here something i wrote to try and explain. I hope it helps.

I am the man
I can’t be sad

I am the rock
I am Dad

I am the teacher of what is right
I am the man who stays up all night

I am the fighter, who cannot fight
I am the man who stays up all night

I am the believer that cannot believe
I am the parasite that will not leave

I am the victim in my head
I am the man who would be better of …..

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tootsiecoo said on 06 July 2014

I have had depression and anxiety issues since a child. I'm now 28 and about two years ago was diagnosed as Borderline Personality Disorder. My father dies last November and I believe since then all he'll has broke loose in terms of my mental health. To quote my mum," Its easier to deal with you when you're just depressed". Joy. Anyways, my diagnosis is being questioned, it may be borderline gone haywire, May be ADHD, bipolar or a little bit of it all! I am pretty sure there's some sort of something else going on anyways. I have had periods of a few weeks feeling like the sexiest, most amazing person ever, lovi g life, chatty Cathy, going to do unrealistic things and damn the people who try and tell me no, more energy, no need for sleep, to depressed as he'll, suicidal, to all of this and more at the same time. Throw in paranoia eg my partner ischeating, that the government is trying to kill us and that people can sense things about me and trying to kill me.

Right now I feel a bit of everything. I'm getting over pneumonia but so irritable but excited and flashes of ideas, Racing thoughts, and wanting to paint the whole house and lose weight and exercise and be instagram famous but at the same time I'm feeling fat and ugly hut wanting sex. Omg.

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alextf said on 15 May 2014

I was diagnosed when I was 23 after many years of emotional turmoil. 4 years later, been on and off meds like carbamazipine, valporate, seroquel, anti depressants, Valium I'm in exactly the same place. I've been begging my doctor for some other kind of input, like talking therapy, CBT, dbt ANYTHING. Apparently I can't have that (time to talk) because I have a history of self harm. I recently asked to see the local mental health team, I was off sick for 2 months with depression. I'm now pretty much fired because I'm too scared to ring work or even go back. The meds make me drowsy and take away my creativity, the one thing I have going for me. Saw a liaison about 2 months ago. Didn't hear anything from them again, havnt even seen a psychiatrist since my first diagnosis and trip to A&E. They closed my case after nine months, the psychiatrist said he was frustrated because I wasn't getting better, so I lied and said I was all better to avoid inconviencing anyone else. My GP had to prescribe me a new mood stabilizer which is pretty much not how it works. I'm off my meds, and currently going through seroquel withdrawal because I can't afford them. So nausea, headaches, hallucinations, mega anxiety and paranoia, hypomania and depression all at the same time for me. I really don't know what to do anymore, I wanted to sort my life out but I don't think I'll ever get better on my own, as much as I try. I don't have a strong enough character to get though it and stiff upper lip like most people tell me to do. Bleak.

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stepstosuccess said on 03 April 2014

Ile start off by saying that what i will be saying means no disrespect to anyone, im about to take my first steps to getting help after being diagnosed as belimic i have not had the easiest of life Ive been in care from the age of 5 and at the age of 18 have only just left i was happy bout that but i have had everything from deppression to anxiety to extreme happiness this is not help by the traumatic experiences in my life everything from rape to abuse i had it all no disrespect or inconsideration to any other writer here i have put of so many trips to the doctors regarding my transexuality because of my extreme low moods ive had enough it stops from here on in cant wait to thank god for every normal day of my future life and life a happy and prosperus life i hope my writings may help others thanks for taking the time to read this if you have taking the time to read this obviously you wont see my thanks if you do not read this so there fore the last bit is abit point so there you go but thank in anyways.

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Female91 said on 30 March 2014

I'm literally at my wits end right now. I haven't been diagnosed with anything yet iv been to doctors before who has diagnosed me with depression about 3 years ago and I also have ADHD. My grandma who I was very close to has just recently passed so I think I'm at my worst. But I'm starting to think iv got bipolar. I'm having massive mood swings at the moment one minute I'm extremely happy and excited then the next I'm screaming at someone, mainly my boyfriend who does not deserve this. I'm so scared of pushing him away when all he does is look out for me. I feel like when I'm feeling down and angry that someone else had taken over me and I say evil things and tend to split up with my boyfriend when I'm like this then half an hour later I'm ok again and regret it and start to feel worthless like I don't deserve someone like him and I'm full of self hate. Growing up I think my mum has it, she used to say horrible things to me like I was fat and stupid and was physically and mentally abusive.But used to make up for it by buying me things then everything was ok again! I feel like I'm pushing everyone away, I need help.

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Geena97 said on 25 March 2014

I grew up with a parent who has bipolar disorder. I am not a doctor but I know enough to know that my childhood and my mom's behavior was abnormal. I remember my mom would run to her room crying at the start of a weekend while my dad would wonder what he did wrong and tried everything to comfort her. Other times, my mom would yell and scream and turn beet-red with anger, for small mistakes that were done at home like spilling milk or accidentally breaking a cup. She was physically and mentally abusive. My mom never responded to my dad's efforts. I remember as a child , I could not wait for the weekend to have fun and have a break from school but by the time the weekend was over, I could not wait to go back to school and a "normal" routine. I hated my childhood and suffered from depression in my early 20's for a very long time. I sought professional help and I did not want to be like my mom and I was terrified that I have her disorder. I went back to school, got my Master's degree and became a teacher. I tried to push myself to prove that I am a valuable person whether or not I did not feel that way growing up. I have nothing in common with any of my siblings--3 of my brothers are clearly depressed not good to be around because of their negativity and my sister refuses to acknowledge of my childhood trauma that she experienced too. I have become estranged from her because she has problems communicating her feelings and is negative about anything I share. And she is clearly unhappy in her marriage. I am in my early 40's now I have moved away and I can honestly say that I feel so much happier when I am away from members of my family. They are unsupportive. I sought professional help last year after my dad died. My mom now has a progressive brain condition and she does not recognize me. I make the most of the time with my mom and forgive her. I know she is a victim. I want to know if I am predisposed with this condition.

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anotherbloke said on 24 March 2014

I'd like to thank gateway9 for her heartfelt advice (20 Feb 2014). I was diagnosed with "normal" depression last year and I see my GP monthly. I've come to the conclusion that bipolar disorder would explain a lot of events in my life, particularly in my career.

I'm in my 50s and looking back I can see several periods when I experienced unusually high creativity and a willingness to embark on risky endeavours. I recall times when I've produced some work and looked back amazed that it was possible, as if someone else (more talented than me) had done it.

The low periods have taken their toll, and disrupted my career in significant ways. I gave up a very enjoyable job during one such low, something I now regret enormously. A long period of depression led eventually to my losing another job and I've been unable to return to employment for several years.

During my unemployment, my highs have given me the energy to take on major DIY projects, learning new practical skills and to get through an online technical training course with flying colours, but the unpredictability of the low periods has made planning for the future quite impossible.

My relationship with my wife has suffered and we now rarely speak. I've just about given up hope for any kind of normal, worthwhile life. The highs are few and far between. The lows are the norm. I wish I could just cease to be.

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mradventurous said on 20 February 2014

im 25 years old and have been fobbed off and treated with depression for 9 year, finaly now i seem to be on the right track going down the mental health road. i know iv got bipolar 100% but it takes motavation and a long time to get the diagnocice, im on the high of all highs at the moment for example this last month iv bought myself a dart board expensive darts and actualy belive im going to be world champion next year,,, who knows though lol

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gateway9 said on 20 February 2014

clinical depression since 15, diagnosed bipolar (manic depression then) 35 years ago, lifetime of on and off meds, talking therapies etc. now on mood stabiliser and in psychoanalytic therapy. have always managed to work except at most terrible times which have been truly terrible, trained and practiced as mental health nurse (still am), married 40 years, children and grandchildren. Loads of support from husband, children and NHS with some input from private sector - one hospital spell when it would have been inappropriate to be nursed by colleagues and personal choice therapy now. Many people commenting here sound as though they may have bipolar or are definitely diagnosed and fighting the fight. Some I would definitely say do not have it and don't be in any rush to want such a diagnosis; it is not a matter of feeling up and down from one day to the next it is a a life changing, stigmatising and very significant mental illness. From a professional and personal point of view I really feel that if you saw some of the cases I have nursed of full blown manic depression/bipolar you'd think a mood swing or so a walk in the park ! I am not minimising the pain for people who really suffer it and many commenting on this site sadly clearly do but if your doctor says you don't then be very very relieved and look for other ways to manage your life (which I don't doubt may be very difficult.)
Mania - my daughter, bless her, will tell of walking through town with me as a child while I howled like a wolf and danced in the street ! I wasn't arrested and trust me compared to what I've seen over the years is mild. I'm in remission now (5 years) and hope I never ever relapse. Bless every reader and commenter on this site; you all are walking with very real problems to which you need answers and help. I hope you find it.

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dye said on 13 February 2014

insomnia and feeling ill again im so tired of it and worn out ,im sick of feeling ill and not liking myself right now

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Life long quest for peace said on 22 January 2014

Depression has never felt like a natural emotion.

I believe society and the constant demands and stresses from life are creating more and more people to feel like life is just too much.
I'm bipolar and only recently have I come to slightly understand that it's nothing I've done wrong. Some things in my life have triggered certain episodes ie family deaths, losing jobs etc. But I know deep down this isn't me. Just like it isn't you.
You weren't born depressed and you weren't born with a mind that couldn't cope with the daily battle of life.
If we had been born into a different world where people had time for each other, forget egos, selfishness, materialism, money etc do you think we would feel this way. I don't believe so.
I do believe we have powerful minds and many of us, even you reading this, you have a powerful mind and you have woken up to the realisation that life could be so much more than this.
Doesn't mean it's time to give up on life and think it can't get better.
I'm currently in a depressive state but I know how awfully low I have been, I've tried to end my life and I'm glad I didn't succeed. I met my partner who I think without even realising has made me see another side to life. We are similar in our dreams and ambitions, though he's never been depressed, he has never made me feel like the odd one out.
Because of him I have chosen to keep fighting everyday. Some days it's all too much and I won't leave my bed but my mind is still thinking I need to keep going, so I can eventually live the dreams we wish for together. I'm lucky to have found him but it happened right after the moment I felt lower than I could have ever imagined. Life was dark and grim, but he saved me. Dream of the life you wish for every day, take small steps at a time to slowly reach your goal. Leave the impulsiveness behind as you know it creates bad consequences.
The world is a scary place but there's others out there like us who want the same thing.

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Real Rocket Scientist said on 26 December 2013

Cant write much it will time out.
Say no to caffine no to any chemical inbalance before adding to it with tablets!

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DarrenF97 said on 23 November 2013

I am only 16 but I start arguments with everyone over the most idiotic things but I can't stop myself from being angry then after I've finished I get depressed and cry mostly but then I go normal, I don't know what is wrong with me and feel scared to ring the doctors or tell my parents how I am feeling incase they don't understand how serious I think it is, can anyone help me?

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notsurejv said on 20 November 2013

I have been to the doctors and been given anti depressants since i was 16, I am now 29! I have recentley been discussing the possibilty of having bipolar with my counciler and she reccomends i go to see a doctor. I am afraid just like anthonyjames that they will shrug me off. I think that the fear of this may even be the 'bipolar' but very un easy about going in case i am let down with the result!!

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anthonyjames said on 17 November 2013

I'm a nearly 28 year old male. I just started to write down all my problems and ran out of characters so I've started again to get more to the point! This has helped me so much. Especially all of your comments. I realised after reading this (someone suggest I looked at it as they suspected this was what was wrong with me) that I have been snubbed off by my doctors, given innefective anti depressants. I took an online test which put me in the second highest bracket of Bi-polar saying that basically I definately suffer from it and should speak to my doctor. I haven't as of yet as I think all they'll do is fob me off with a prescription for depression and tell me to come back in a few weeks. The more I look at this the more I realise that all of this applies to me. What's my best cause of action to get properly diagnosed so I can get the help I should be and start to staighten out my life.

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justme87 said on 22 July 2013

Recently been diagnosed by my psychiatrist that im bipolar, and that my meds need to change because im bein medicated with anti depressants which in actual fact can make me worse.

Iv been on a downer for the past 1-2 weeks with sum manic episodes in between.

I dont know what to do i feel so low and im scared.

Anybody got suggestions?

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meandmysarcasm said on 16 July 2013

I've always had mood swings, and been irritable. I write a lot and when I was happy, I would write for hours and not sleep at all. It felt like drinking 7 cups of expresso in a row. I'd get off my desk at work and wander. During these moods, I would decide I needed a whole new wardrobe, stuff for my uni room (even though I don't know if I'm even moving yet) like wine glasses. I bought a DS once because I felt like it, and clay, tools etc to make a mask. I think my writing is brilliant and if I could just write down all my rushing thoughts, it would be an instant best-seller.

I've also had depression though, sometimes at the same time. Not horrifically bad depression, but I have wondered about the point of life. I stop writing, thinking I'm doing terribly, I withdraw from friends and get paranoid that they hate me. It's caused a lot of problems.

The thing is, I recently went to a psychiatrist to talk about this and she said due to the stress in my life and how quickly I said these moods come and go, it doesn't sound like bipolar. But it's difficult to say how long ago you had a mood, or how long it lasted for, when asked. I think they're very short (usually about a day or even half a day) mania episodes, followed by depression. But I still don't know if that is bipolar. I still have a few more appointments, and a mood diary and I need to call when I feel 'up' again, but it's not being labelled bipolar because I said I was usually 40% okay and 60% mood swings, but I don't think that's quite true.

Can anyone offer some advice etc?

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meandmysarcasm said on 16 July 2013

I've always had mood swings, and been irritable. I write a lot and when I was happy, I would write for hours and not sleep at all. It felt like drinking 7 cups of expresso in a row. I'd get off my desk at work and wander. During these moods, I would decide I needed a whole new wardrobe, stuff for my uni room (even though I don't know if I'm even moving yet) like wine glasses. I bought a DS once because I felt like it, and clay, tools etc to make a mask. I think my writing is brilliant and if I could just write down all my rushing thoughts, it would be an instant best-seller.

I've also had depression though, sometimes at the same time. Not horrifically bad depression, but I have wondered about the point of life. I stop writing, thinking I'm doing terribly, I withdraw from friends and get paranoid that they hate me. It's caused a lot of problems.

The thing is, I recently went to a psychiatrist to talk about this and she said due to the stress in my life and how quickly I said these moods come and go, it doesn't sound like bipolar. But it's difficult to say how long ago you had a mood, or how long it lasted for, when asked. I think they're very short (usually about a day or even half a day) mania episodes, followed by depression. But I still don't know if that is bipolar. I still have a few more appointments, and a mood diary and I need to call when I feel 'up' again, but it's not being labelled bipolar because I said I was usually 40% okay and 60% mood swings, but I don't think that's quite true.

Can anyone offer some advice etc?

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sophdmconfusedfeduptired said on 01 July 2013

I have read a few comments and get very simaler syptoms. My moods are uncontrollable and can change at amy time. Usually when I feel depressed it stays for longer. When I am manic I dont feel anythinng just have no control spemd money I shouldnt and end up making bad or even unsafe decisions. I've only ever been diagnosed with depression and post tramatic stress but I feel I maybe bipolar. When I try to talk to friends and family they tell me I'm being silly n have nothing wrong but its cz I rarely tell them how I truely feel. I'm fed up of living this way and need help and support. I dont no whatt to do

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musicgirl_xo said on 12 June 2013

HELP!!

I find it hard to so these type of things but I need help...advice.

I'm 14 and lately I've been feeling off. I thought that's what it was but then I realised it wasn't. My moods are switching and its causing me pain. At times I'll be over excited and hyper! And I can't control it, like I'm talking on and on and can't stop. Or I just feel so hyper and awake its unbelievable. I feel I can do anything and I even wrote a few songs on my guitar, and wrote a few chapters of a book. Then suddenly, I'll feel depressed. I'll feel like In nothing, worthless. At times I would cry and cry, stay In my room in the dark and just not want to be around people. I would make plans with friends then end up saying i can't go and make an excuse which would make them upset but I wouldn't care at the time. It also switches to me being angry and lashing out at the wrong people. I've started feeling tired and exhausted, where I would come home and just go to bed, which is making things bad for me because its happening in lesson, so no one can say I'm not getting enough sleep. I feel like everything I love and used to do is slipping away and I'm losing interest in my life. I started to self harm a while back and I just started but even now I'm trying to control myself and stop. I tried to tell my sister but she's telling me its all in my head and I didn't even tell net I cut because I don't know her reaction. Maybe it is in my head, or maybe I'm crazy, but I need help, and I can't go to the doctors because you need your parents. I'm lost.

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endless summer said on 14 April 2013

Although suffering from mental illness for over twenty years it wasn't until 2008 I was diagnosed with Bi polar.
I recently failed my first suicide attempt.
Bi polar is deep within you as you know if you suffer from it, very rarely will life break the spell at the time you are suffering and no words will help.
But please remember if you can, there is nothing wrong with being deep,but do try to find help.
Many famous people had it, we are special caring deep people who just want to be happy, this for the majority is normal.
Below is a list to inspire you, plus a link.
Take care.

Adam Ant,Russell Brand,Frank Bruno,Alastair Campbell,Winston Churchill,
Kurt Cobain,Charles Dickens,Richard Dreyfuss,Patty Duke,Stephen Fry,Paul Gascoigne,Mel Gibson,
Macy Gray,Terry Hall,Ernest Hemingway.
And many, many more very clever people.


http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_people_with_bipolar_disorder



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SolitaryDelirium said on 05 April 2013

cazz27 said on 06 August 2012
Hi im so glad I read some of the comments on here I have delt with this for years, I was told i had depression but I would have really overly happy days where i believed i could acheive anything, next day I would be upset not sleeping not wanting to speak to people as they would irritate me.What scared me was my temper i could go from being ok to angry punching things very quickly feeling like i had no control.i spend most of my time on my xbox or ds trying to block out the world as that tends to help. But sometimes i can get so upset and feel so low I dont want to go on my box or ds which is unusual for me, its like i lose interest in everything and everyone.I get snappy with people for no reason and then feel guilty afterwards.The only way i can describe it would be like being on a rollorcoaster with constant ups and downs you dont choose what direction things go in you just get dragged for the ride.I hate not knowing whats around the next corner am I going to be happy today angry ,upset ,suicidal or just hyper active.Well at least im not alone with this looks like its not just me

This is just me...im 16 and this is like the perfect description of me...i havent been diagnosed with anything apart from 'a faze of teenage depression' but ive only had 2 meetings with CAMHS....ok i understand i dont tend to explain much because its embarrassing...so dunno...the only thing not mentioned that i get is when im hyperactive i dont have any emotion...dont feel anything...then when im low i just feel hopeless and sad.

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mostafa112 said on 01 April 2013

Some times, I have desire to communicate with people, all people, even strangers. Hold my Phone and connect friends reassuring their welfare. In transportation, I talking to someone I don't know before about general things in life, and make fun of jokes. With family I give a feeling of joy and comfort. I can draw a smile on each lip I speak with. In a celebrate I dance and get fun with everyone. I go visiting my grand and spend with her a nice time.
http://withbipolardisorder.blogspot.com

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GabriellaSchizzetta said on 05 February 2013

I'm scaried by only the possibilities

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needs advise said on 31 January 2013

I have suffered with depresion since i was 16 and i got help and went to see a phyciatrist and became better and when i was 20 i became severley depressed but was hearing voices and seeing things that werent there then i got diagonesd with physcosis and took ages to get better and get my life back on track and now im 24 and some of my symptons have come back but worse my moods all over the place one minute im depressed then next minute im loving life loads and full of energy.i have been diagnosed with mood disorder with physcotic features they said a mild form of bipolar and i just dont know what to do i hear voices quite abit see things that arent there and think i am beeing controlled by someone, and think someone is out to get me and are against me and i am also very paranoid im currently taking mood stabalizers and anti depressants and see a mental health support worker but it feels like nothings working and wen im severly depressed each time my symptons get worse. I have recently been on anti physcotics and they worked for my physcosis. please could someone comment and give advise if they have had symptoms like mine and tell me how they coped and got better.

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GabriellaSchizzetta said on 17 January 2013

Dos it transmit from parents to children?

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GabriellaSchizzetta said on 15 January 2013

I'm scaried by only the possibilities

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AngelaDunkin said on 03 December 2012

I am concerned I might suffer from bipolar disorder.
I'm a 16 years old girl, and I'm a music student :)

Sometimes I can be both happy and depressed in the same day. For example, even if I'm having a good day, I always think ON PURPOSE about something depressing and I cry for hours,then afterwards I feel happy again as before,as nothing happened. It's been three weeks I'm suffering from insomnia. That never happened before. I can't go to sleep before 5 am and then of course I can't wake up before 2 pm and this cause a lot of absences from college, and when I wake up on time I'm always depressed cause I don't want to go to college because I don't like it anymore. I'm studying music and I've always loved it but in some ways I don't like the college....I play the clarinet and I don't enjoy playing it as before...now I enjoy more singing. I don't think it's a "period". Since the relocation from Italy to UK I've been less interested in playing clarinet.
Talking about singing, every night I pretend to sing on a stage...and I see people that are not there with me and I can even interact with them. And this is normal to me... and this happens always. Everything I'm doing there are people watching me around me and I can talk to them and they can hear me too. Sometimes I have conversations with them too.
In "real life" my confidence is not existent...when this things happen I'm even over confident.When those people "watch" me I'm super confident about myself and not shy at all.
When I was smaller I thought about suicide a couple of times. Now it's different because I just want to hurt myself (and I do sometimes) but not kill myself.

Do you think I might have bipolar disorder?

Thanks in advance to everyone who will answer,
Angela ?


(sorry if I made mistakes in my writing...English is not my first language!)

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Man in the mirror said on 29 November 2012

My story is a happy and successful one. I don't want to sound arrogant but, I have found a way to channel this 'GIFT' we have and utilised it. I call it a gift because there are things we are capable of that 'normal' people can't do. I have experienced mania, I loved the euphoria, I loved it. People around me loved me as well. I'm still that person, I'm just mellowed because people can't keep up! All the ideas, all the shopping sprees, good fun, oh and my crazy driving!

I would like to state that I believe insight to the illness, proper sleep (even though I'm an owl I try and take a nap in the evenings), regular exercise, MEDS MEDS MEDS (I know......!) and a good circle of friends and family have helped me ENHANCE my life. I have been sectioned twice in my life and admitted to hospital by care workers once voluntarily. My life took a dip in the eyes of people around me but I fought on, battled through and now reaping the rewards.

I have an upper class degree, a post graduate qualification, a wife who knew about the illness before marrying me - very brave woman (!), we are happily married and both teachers (yes, I was asked a million questions by occupational health!). I have never drank, smoked, taken drugs and never will. My close friends know I'm Bipolar but accept me for who I am, I know I've been fortunate but I've also worked hard, harder than people without the illness. I play even harder and do things I want to do- I really think doing the things that make YOU happy helps. Whatever works for YOU. Also,try and keep a daily log of mood and activities.

My father had schizophrenia and my mother is currently in hospital with Bipolar Disorder - having just been diagnosed last month. The irony is her background was working for the NHS, dealing with people with Bipolar Disorder and many other mental illnesses. She has battled with depression for most of her life. I hope I can inspire my mother like she has inspired me.

All the best.

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User4190 said on 27 November 2012

I have been with my partner for almost a year now and I love him dearly. I didn't know he was bipolar for a good few months, when I found out he seemed fine so I assumed he was taking his medication.Things were fine and I became pregnant and things just got so much better. I miscarried unfortunately at 2 months and I have watched him slide into a manic state ever since. I as he got very aggressive and violent towards me, rearranged things in my flat, written things on walls and doors and other things too many to mention here. When I have moved anything even slightly he has gone ballistic at me for moving things. I have spoken to his cpn and said I thought he needed sectioning and explained all the above, all they did was send the police round to his home and he wouldn't speak to them and it was left at that. He has told me he has seen his cpn and psychiatrist and has been told he can halve his medication (even though I had never seen him take it up to this point or since even though he assures me he is) I am at the end of my tether he wants us to get married and try for kids again, but all I want to do is run away from him even though I am the only person who has stood by him. He has alienated a lot of his friends and even the most forgiving ones have lost patience with im now. Any advice?

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Old_Bag_O_Nerves said on 07 November 2012

cazz27 said on 06 August 2012
Hi im so glad I read some of the comments on here I have delt with this for years, I was told i had depression but I would have really overly happy days where i believed i could acheive anything, next day I would be upset not sleeping not wanting to speak to people as they would irritate me.What scared me was my temper i could go from being ok to angry punching things very quickly feeling like i had no control.i spend most of my time on my xbox or ds trying to block out the world as that tends to help. But sometimes i can get so upset and feel so low I dont want to go on my box or ds which is unusual for me, its like i lose interest in everything and everyone.I get snappy with people for no reason and then feel guilty afterwards.The only way i can describe it would be like being on a rollorcoaster with constant ups and downs you dont choose what direction things go in you just get dragged for the ride.I hate not knowing whats around the next corner am I going to be happy today angry ,upset ,suicidal or just hyper active.Well at least im not alone with this looks like its not just me'

OMG! I thought I was reading about myself when I read this! I'm 47 and going through a divorce after 30 yrs of marriage. I have suffered with depression for years, but I've always tried to hide it because I wanted everyone to think I was ok. Secretly, I was worried that I might have to go into a psyche unit, I am not coping too well atm, and it really helps to see I'm not the only one. God bless you all xxx

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catkin29 said on 04 November 2012

I think I probably have bipolar disorder and will need to speak with my GP about it. I have found a fabulous, supportive forum on www.dealingwithdepression.co.uk.

Take a look guys - the posters are so friendly and supportive! It could help bring you back from a dark place as it has done for me xxx

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Ladywriterwriter said on 30 August 2012

When I was 10 my Mum got very sick, after that she was always sick and I lived on my nerves, then she died when I had just reached 16. A few years later my Dad started to get very sick. So called relatives just told me to get on with it all. I cant repeat what I said to them on here. then my own health started to suffer and I was diagnosed with serious hypertension at the age of 35. GP said another month I would have had a heart attack. See, I carried all that stress around for years since age of 10. I had no real support. No one to talk to or turn to really. At times I felt so alone. But since was only child what could I do, not much. Then I started to lose it, good and bad days. Highly emotional state t a party once I got very upset for no reason. I have previous chucked things around the room breaking it as well thru temper. because all this stuff built up in me over the years. Plus I felt I was used, worthless, like a piece of paper chucked back in the bin when not needed, taken out again when needed. I was very low. Then had 3 or so panic attacks years later. I never got No support from relatives and they can go rot but at least I have a husband now and friends, and I dont suffer from bi polar but have had severe depression to the point of wanting to die before, and I just want to say to people here, there is hope, I went through all of that and managed to pull through it all. How I did it I dont know. Will power I guess.

there is hope out there.

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Psych1 said on 23 August 2012

I've known my partner for 25 years and I am fully aware of when she is having manic episodes and psychosis, but trying to get help from the Psychiatrists is virtually useless. I can honestly say I know here illness in her more than a Psychiatrist and I know what medication works to get her out of a delusional stae of mind but they will not listen. You ring the emergency mental line, as a partner, as the Bi polar person won't ring as they think nothing is wrong with them. You get the phone ringing for help then a message comes on "Thankyou for calling Manchester Mental Health, we are busy at the moment, if it is an emergency please call the samaritans"!! It's a complete joke and it's just a matter of time before she crashes mentally, which would be a god send because at least she'd be in hospital, or try and commit suicide and end up intensive care for a month if she survives this time having tried some other way out. She is suspicious of me and other people things I am in the Masons and in the Police. She uses correction fluid on all things with writing on like the back of electric plugs back of her laptop and pens with writing on and cutting all labels out of my shirts etc.,, the list goes on and I wrote to the psychiatrist telling them about whats she's doing , they showed my partner the letter but don't do anything they can't see the signs because they just rely on their medical books. The biggest joke about Psychiatrists, as I previously mentioned, my partner tried to commit suicide and survived , was touch and go and was in intensive care for month the first question the Psychiatrist asked he when she was moved to a noraml ward having regained consciousness was "What day is it?". I mean it is bad enough remembering awhat day it is for most of us some of the time but when someone's just come out of a comer and they ask this. I know the drug that cures her Largactil but like hell Il'l struggle to get her on it!

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cazz27 said on 06 August 2012

Hi im so glad I read some of the comments on here I have delt with this for years, I was told i had depression but I would have really overly happy days where i believed i could acheive anything, next day I would be upset not sleeping not wanting to speak to people as they would irritate me.What scared me was my temper i could go from being ok to angry punching things very quickly feeling like i had no control.i spend most of my time on my xbox or ds trying to block out the world as that tends to help. But sometimes i can get so upset and feel so low I dont want to go on my box or ds which is unusual for me, its like i lose interest in everything and everyone.I get snappy with people for no reason and then feel guilty afterwards.The only way i can describe it would be like being on a rollorcoaster with constant ups and downs you dont choose what direction things go in you just get dragged for the ride.I hate not knowing whats around the next corner am I going to be happy today angry ,upset ,suicidal or just hyper active.Well at least im not alone with this looks like its not just me

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gingeyguy said on 21 July 2012

Can anyone help me. I have been in a gay relationship with a wonderful guy for the last 16 months. He suffers with Bipolar and 90% of the time he is ok. The other 10% he is horrendous. He drinks exesively and then seems to change into a totally different person. Becoming quite violent towards me and just like another person.
I do love him so much and he knows this but he is also very controlling. As long as I jump when he says jump then all is ok. He hates me seeing my own friends and hates them even tho he has not met them. It seems like he just wants my life to tatally evolve arrond him. Is this quite normal?
Any help would be most appreciated.

Ginge

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emily2288 said on 04 July 2012

antonio09 i just read your story and i completly broke down in2 tears, i go thru the same except i dont have kids, i move every 6 months, coz nowhere feels home, i was in a violent relationship for 3 years, everytime my ex would leave me after an arguemnt or fight i would shout at myself, pull my hair punch myself and feel like dyin this would happen once every couple of months, my friends and family started seeing me less often and my ex made me think it was all me, he would say i looked fat knowin i had had previous weight issues and am stil tryin to tell myself leavin him was the best thing, but since meetin my new fella im a bitch and i sumetimes feel like just standin up shoutin at him tellin him i h8 him even though all he did was look at me and smile , i feel like i want my ex back everyday and hav recently spoke 2 him. i have crazy ideas all the time like, im 24 and in the past 2 years ive applied to college evry 6 months to do completly different things, mechanics one month, hair, last week it ws nail tips in less thank 4 days i applied to college spent £150 on ebay for naii bits and i have never even had nail tips and never dne it. i get over happy and think all these things it always it feels like i wana shout at myself coz it hurts my head , il speak at 100 mph coz i think ill forget it in a min coz i think 2 many things, il be in my car or
walkin down the street or even watchin tele and the littlest thing will make me go crazy to a point where im cryin im so angry or bein so angry i laugh and cry at the same time, i dont get on with my dads girlfriend and everytime we have a mild disagreemt not even an arguement i walk off wait till no1 can see me and just go mental cryin hystrically, feelin like im worthless and wish my life was different i feel this most days sometimes i feel like a milion dollars and go out thinkin i look like a model, 10 mins later im conviced i look like a slag, dad says i have bi polar but im worried my doc wil laugh

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antonio09 said on 20 June 2012

im am 26 when i was 16 i enterd a relationship i can remember being a normal person being happy then it started gettin violent a few years into it i started gettin mood swings nothing that was of bad concern but went to the docs and was given antidepressents and was told i had postnatal depression after takin the tablets i noticed i wasnt gettin better so i tuk myself off them and continued with life after 6 years with domestic violence i finally left and met a wonderful man who treats me like a princess but since then i have became a monster i didnt really notice the mood swings until he sat me down and told me and i remember sitting there and thinking omg i have a problem on a high i do stupid things i buy all sorts of stupid things off ebey (thats my worst addiction when im having an episode) that i dont need i have stupid ideas think of stupid places to go we ended up in glasgow once in a blizzard bad idea i have all sorts of plans of how im gonna get a new job do this do that but never do it i cant sleep my mind never stops ticking it feels like im stuck ina vicous circle i cant get out of i get the giggles and talk like im auctioneer have lots to say but nothin interesting lol then when im on a low im tired i do no house work dont like anyone dont want to talk to anyone think theyre all nosey my worst problem on a downer is moving house ive moved 7 times i just cant settle its upsettin my children i shout at them all the time then sit and think i didnt even need to shout at them everything has to be done yday and my way if it isnt i get irritated angry then ill cry and fall asleep i get dizzy all the time my legs get irrititated and i cant sit still ive tried talking to my doctor but they just keep giving me antidepressants which dont work or make me worse i just wish to god i cud get sum help or just sumat to malke me normal im trapped in this other world a crazy one if anyone can help plz msg me cause my doctor just doesnt want to help

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matchpoint said on 14 June 2012

Hi. Have just visited this site today as I have been considering for a while now that I may have bipolar and have been suffering from it for longer than I even knew. I am very down today and am displaying many of the symptoms described in the other comments, such as constant chest pain, feeling so tired I can hardly move and not finding anything positive in anything. At the same time I feel panicy and anxious and like I want to do something to either calm down or make myself feel better, but it's like I'm stuck and can't think straight. I suppose that is why I'm sitting writing this instead of the work I should be doing. I very often feel like I would like to committ suicide, that it would actually be the best thing for me because I could finally feel some peace, and I have taken pills and cut myself in the past, but what stopped me doing it properly then was that I have kids and a family that cares for me and I don't want to ruin their lives or put them through any pain.
I hate being like this and I just want to be normal. I am self employed and I don't want to be labelled with anything that might take away my job and make my life worse. I work really hard and have achieved good qualifications and people say how clever I am and good at what I do, but my career is going no-where and I have no money or hopes for the future. It is very complicated and I don't understand why it should be this way.
I think I have come to recognise that even when I feel good and positive that this is in fact the 'mania' component of bipolar, and that is why I always come crashing back down. I don't want to see the doctor again and have people be concerned about me and how I am, I just want to get on and be able to do things without being judged. Taking pills and medication always makes me feel worse as I feel pathetic and weak even just through the process of having to go to the cupbored and take them. I just want to feel like me again, but I've forgotton how.

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BearHead said on 06 June 2012

My name is Bear I am a 24 year old male. I am new to this site and new to the idea that I may have a problem. After spending the last few hours reading up on different conditions and through the comments on here, I am starting to believe that I may be bipolar. I share many (most) of the symptoms that people have written about. The symptoms I have are:
The intense feelings of highs and lows. Some days I am incredibly happy. I walk in public singing out loud to my ipod without a care in the world to what people think. I am excited by life and I fantasize about my future. I have tons of energy and can’t keep still (usually my legs) I want to get up and go to places and do things. I get boisterous and silly and loved up and can’t stop smiling. I feel strong inside and can tackle any problems or issues that arise. I feel I am myself and I am genuinely happy and content in who I am and what my life consists of.

Unfortunately the reverse of this can happen in the very same day. I get intense feelings of sadness, self pity, worthlessness. I have a lack of desire to work, get out of bed, to do anything productive. I want to sleep away the days, hiding from reality and socialising, in fact I never want to wake up. I have no energy, I feel lethargic, depressed and I ache all over. I go through stages where I can’t turn off my mind, I think and think and think and it takes me ages to fall asleep and then I wake up ridiculously early with instant thinking again and worry. I go for days without eating when I usually have 4/5 meals a day. I have a constant pain in my heart and stomach. I cry uncontrollably for days. I will get grumpy/moody/angry (usually with my girlfriend and my parents, the people who I live the most) over things that just do not warrant a reaction like that at all. Pathetic little things that shouldn’t even be a problem or warrant anything more than a discussion over a disagreement.

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BearHead said on 06 June 2012

I got extremely upset and had horrible, horrible thoughts and feelings of guilt, stupidity and regret and decided that my life was not worth living. I went to the pharmacy and attempted to overdose on sleeping pills. I didn’t finish of the second pack as the regret of just what the implications of this would have on the life of my family, girlfriend and friends got to me and I couldn’t go through with it and do that to them. I am still not sure if I actually wanted to commit suicide. I feel I more wanted to just fall asleep and stay there for as long as possible so that I didn’t have to wake up and face these demons. I felt drunk and drowsy so I told my girlfriend what I had done and she came and found me and stayed with me until the evening when she thought I was ok. I woke up in the middle of the night having a panic attack and feeling suicidal again. My heart was beating really irregularly, I felt lonely and scared and the vastness of what I had done started to kick in. I stayed up all night in deep thought and eventually calmed down. It is at this point where I really started to analyse myself and realise that this isn’t normal behaviour and I may actually have a problem. I felt disgusted with myself and embarrassed that there are so many people worse off than me that wouldn’t dream of wasting a life like that. I accepted that I need help and have been living in denial and went and told my parents what I had done. I booked in to see a doctor who has referred me in for a mental health consultation tomorrow. I don’t actually know if bipolar is my problem but the indications and symptoms would seem to point that way. I feel aweful still but am feeling optimistic that I now realise that I am not the only one who gets these feelings and am hopeful that somebody can help me tomorrow. Writing all of this down is a start. Please advise on any similar experiences you have gone through and methods you used to combat these feelings. Thanks

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BearHead said on 06 June 2012

when it is all my own fault. I am irrational and loose all logic. It’s as if my brain switches off momentarily and I shout and swear and say hurtful, nasty things that aren’t even true. Eventually I will calm down, find some clarity and replay the situation in my head, It is at this point when I realise just how wrong I have been and how I have hurt somebody that cares for me and loves me and I start to hugely regret my actions and start to get in an angry rage and hate myself. It is at this stage when I occasionally lash out, self harm (punches to the face, cuts to the body). Alternatively I can take it out on objects (throw a phone across the room, punch a door, steering wheel) All these emotions that I can’t seem to handle make me scared and I react by pushing my girlfriend away instead of manning up and facing my problems. I panic and loose the bigger picture and attempt to break up with her on numerous occasions (not ever really wanting to do so and regretting it very quickly afterwards) I then realise just how much of an idiot I have been and do everything I can to make it up to her, and show her I am sorry and amazingly she takes me back time after time. We have a good relationship and things will be ok for a while just for me to slip into this state and re-offend. It is during this period where I have my worst feelings and suicidal thoughts. I picture how I would do it and convince myself it is the only option.

I have always been sceptical about mental/physical health issues and couldn't fathom myself as having one as I always felt myself too strong minded. This was until 24 hours ago when my girlfriend broke up with me because of another of my volatile reactions to the littlest of things and my blatant mood swings. Not for the first time I saw red and got angry and aggressive towards her (verbal not physical). It took me days to accept that I was wrong and by then she had made her mind up and decided enough was enough.

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BearHead said on 06 June 2012

My name is Bear I am a 24 year old male. I am new to this site and new to the idea that I may have a problem. After spending the last few hours reading up on different conditions and through the comments on here, I am starting to believe that I may be bipolar. I share many (most) of the symptoms that people have written about. The symptoms I have are:
The intense feelings of highs and lows. Some days I am incredibly happy. I walk in public singing out loud to my ipod without a care in the world to what people think. I am excited by life and I fantasize about my future. I have tons of energy and can’t keep still (usually my legs) I want to get up and go to places and do things. I get boisterous and silly and loved up and can’t stop smiling. I feel strong inside and can tackle any problems or issues that arise. I feel I am myself and I am genuinely happy and content in who I am and what my life consists of.

Unfortunately the reverse of this can happen in the very same day. I get intense feelings of sadness, self pity, worthlessness. I have a lack of desire to work, get out of bed, to do anything productive. I want to sleep away the days, hiding from reality and socialising, in fact I never want to wake up. I have no energy, I feel lethargic, depressed and I ache all over. I go through stages where I can’t turn off my mind, I think and think and think and it takes me ages to fall asleep and then I wake up ridiculously early with instant thinking again and worry. I go for days without eating when I usually have 4/5 meals a day. I have a constant pain in my heart and stomach. I cry uncontrollably for days. I will get grumpy/moody/angry (usually with my girlfriend and my parents, the people who I live the most) over things that just do not warrant a reaction like that at all. Pathetic little things that shouldn’t even be a problem or warrant anything more than a discussion over a disagreement. I blame my girlfriend for making me feel this way

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avila21 said on 08 May 2012

Hi Everyone...i just have some questions I don't no wat to do and I need help.....I have a bf and we r planning to live together and well he's going through a hard time a year ago his dad died and he couldn't go to his funeral and now he's stressing out over his job he's a cook at a restaurant and he works 65-70hrs a week which is a bunch and we only see each other 2xs a week and well he's a nice guy and all but he's happy n out of the no where if I say Somethin wrong he gets all mad and it seems he has to argue with me all the Time and he stresses out a lot and hes been taking pills to get better sleep becuz thers nights that he can't sleep and he's awake all night or until like 4 or 5 am.

How do I help him I mean I love this guy but sometimes I feel that he wants me to stay away but then later when he realizes wat he had done to me being so rude, he apologizes to me...IDK ...what do I do how can I help him....I don't think we r ready to move in together...

Someone plz help

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BSCG90 said on 30 April 2012

I would like some advice, my boyfriend has very bad mood swings, he can get very very angry then all of a sudden become calm as if nothing happened. He goes through phases of being perfectly fine, then out of the blue he starts arguing and becoming angry over nothing. Hes fixated with his mobile, always on it from the moment he gets in from work, until he goes to bed. He says there is nothing wrong but apparently his GP said that he had signs of Bipolar, and he briefly used anti depressents but we had a break then and im not sure on what was said. I want to ask him if I can go to the GP with him but last night unfortunatley he had another mood swing and became very angry, he took my car keys and told me how awful I am because I asked him why he left a rubbish bin bag in our living room, the things he said were just awful he is 24 and I am 21 and we now live together and it is becoming unbearable.

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User655498 said on 22 April 2012

Hi Midnight fairie. I'm sorry to hear things have not been good for you. It is so tough isn't it?
I do not have bipolar myself, but have very much been involved as my partner has bipolar. As much as everyone will not believe me, I really do feel your pain.
There is hope. As difficult as it is to believe or for you to see it, there is.
I can assure you that the pain of you not being here will outweigh the pain of you being here, by an unbelievable amount.
You are so important to people. And as much as you will not see it, people need you.

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Axledeer said on 22 April 2012

Having read these comments, I reluctantly believe I have the disorder. My father and Grand-father both suffered from bad mood swings but just lived with them. I seem to have a more severe form which I think is Bi-Polar. Some days I feel almost europhic for no particular reason, and others, I feel as though my world is full of doom, the depressive side has sometimes lasted for a few months. Unfortunately I self-medicate, using alcohol as a crutch rather than dealing with the core problem. I am now at the point where I know I need help and can no longer 'just shake it off' as some people suggest...... Any advice and coping stratigies would be greatly recieved, Doctors appointment booked for Friday.......

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Axledeer said on 22 April 2012

Having read these comments, I reluctantly believe I have the disorder. My father and Grand-father both suffered from bad mood swings but just lived with them. I seem to have a more severe form which I think is Bi-Polar. Some days I feel almost europhic for no particular reason, and others, I feel as though my world is full of doom, the depressive side has sometimes lasted for a few months. Unfortunately I self-medicate, using alcohol as a crutch rather than dealing with the core problem. I am now at the point where I know I need help and can no longer 'just shake it off' as some people suggest...... Any advice and coping stratigies would be greatly recieved, Doctors appointment booked for Friday.......

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Axledeer said on 22 April 2012

Having read these comments, I reluctantly believe I have the disorder. My father and Grand-father both suffered from bad mood swings but just lived with them. I seem to have a more severe form which I think is Bi-Polar. Some days I feel almost europhic for no particular reason, and others, I feel as though my world is full of doom, the depressive side has sometimes lasted for a few months. Unfortunately I self-medicate, using alcohol as a crutch rather than dealing with the core problem. I am now at the point where I know I need help and can no longer 'just shake it off' as some people suggest...... Any advice and coping stratigies would be greatly recieved, Doctors appointment booked for Friday.......

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midnight fairie said on 15 April 2012

hi user655498.ive had a really bad few weeks i took an overdose and ended up back in hospital its been a nightmare.doctor took me off olanzapine and prescribed me an antidepressant i cant face even getting up in a morning i cant look after my daughter or cook or clean im a complete mess.when does it get any better.i would just like to feel a little bit normal instead of all this anxiety its horrible i panic about everything cant do anything its torture

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easy11 said on 11 April 2012

I am now 27, and been suffering from bipolar disorder for about 10 years. I have to say it is very distrubing. Most of all, because it ruins friendships and relationships as you run for through stages of happiness and sadness which are somewhat divorced from your environment. It makes things confusing to say the least. I have run through life with suicidal thoughts, because it is nearly impossible to complete life this way without losing the plot.

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User655498 said on 08 April 2012

Hi midnight fairie. How are you feeling? Are you still in hospital? Have you told your doctor about the side effects ie wanting to sleep?
There is a better life there for you, but you will need to be strong, be honest with yourself and with the closest people around you. Hopefully you post again on here soon and check back shortly.

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turkee1992 said on 31 March 2012

i have been trying to deal what seem like bipolar disorder for almost a year now. i've alway thought it was only me I tried to deal with it on my own. I would just like to thank everone whos commented because its exactly how ive been feeling and its made me realise im not alone

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RIKDAV said on 30 March 2012

Hi im new to the site, I am worried I may have bipolar. my doctor originally suggested anxiety back in 2011 but since then I have had constant mood swings from 1 day to the next... I really have so much to say about it but I have read up on the condition through comments left by members on here.. here are a few of my symptoms...

Not wanting / cant be bothered eating or making food.

Getting excited over many ideas and plans in my head but not completing and fulfilling all of them resulting in feeling down useless and unwanted.

Getting stressed with wife and children.

Not admitting when im wrong and blaming others

Feeling suicidal and drinking to try to make me feel better.

Hearing voices in my head usually a sentence which i try complete by talking after it. (very strange)

been violent towards objects doors windows furniture, throwing things although never physically violent towards other people.

Not wanting to go out for walks or in the car as I feel paranoid that others are watching me and talking about me.

Not being able to take things in properly when people talk to me by agreeing and understanding falsely (which also leads to mistakes at work and constant worrying that things are not being done correctly)

Sorry for the long winded post, but I cant put everything I feel..

Right now im waiting on my doctor to call me to whom I will open out to as this has pretty much all but ended my Marriage and family.
I think I need help but I feel like I have left it to long and have given up.... right now im getting a high with explaining all on here but I know as soon as I finish this post I will turn depressed and low...
I just cant help been like this and just want some help and advice from others.

Thanks for reading my post..

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Becca25 said on 24 March 2012

Im 25 and have been diagnosied with bipolar disorder II for around two years. It has been so difficult I was put on medication which I did take for around 6 months but found that it caused me to feel tired and in a zombie like state. I had a manic episode where I thought i was fine, in fact i felt brilliant. My friends, family and work colleagues saw differently thou as i was acting very erratic hearing people talking to me and seeing things moving when they wasnt.

I have found myself to be ok for around a year with the help of doing a daily diary of how I am feeling and recognising when im going too high or too low and doing things like relaxing activities when im manic and talking to people about how im feeling when im depressed. I also find exercise has been good to help stabilize my moods.

Unfortunatly I am now having a depressed episode and it is a really bad one that I can't pull myself out of. I will sleep for ages, blame everybody around me for my problems and have suicidal thoughts. I have cried none stop but I am aware what has triggered it, through changes in my career - increased hours, relationship problems and financial.

I dont want to go back on medication so ive now decided to try and solve each problem one by one and to force myself out even though this is so so hard to do with the state I am in.
As the saying goes 'what goes up must come down' and vice versa so I no its a matter of time before I go into manic state, which is why I am planning what i need to do and others around me when this happens.

People with bipolar disorder need people there for them offering support and encouragment, to calm them down or try to cheer them up depending on the manic state. I do feel thou that you have to also help yourself and try to learn the signs of when its about to happen.

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destinycold said on 21 March 2012

for a long time now i have sufferd unusual highs and lows, one min the world is a great place, the next i wanna burn it, i get very , very stressed at the slightest thing but other times i feel like i can handle anything. i constantly think of suicide wether i am in a high or low state. i first tried suicide at 17 but didnt like all the attention it brought so i try my upmost to resist although sometimes it is very hard, i also from time to time here voices/music in my head. i was diognosed with obsessive thought disorder about two years ago and frequently have to go on olanzapine to help calm it. I spend like there is no tomorrow. One min i can visualize me and my familys future life and plan it perfectly others i cant see the point in any of it. i sleep for 10 mins a day sometimes, other times for 20 to 24 hours like i am in a coma. my partner dosent dare wake me up as i could go crazy or be in a top mood. but always one or the other. last nite i got very down, almost walking out on my family, this morn i woke up not being able to stop crying but now im in quite a good mood (an hour later) but still feel like crying and i jus cant shift the suicidal thoughts...at all. i have bipolar dont i ?

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midnight fairie said on 16 March 2012

yeah user655498 i do use this site a bit hoping someone will have some answers im still feeling terrible theyve upped my medication to 800mg of sodium valproate now and im currently in hospital after having suicidal thoughts i cant win i would just like some answers please or words of suport and encouragement.does anyone else just want to sleep all the time with this medication

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User655498 said on 14 March 2012

Hi midnight fairie, I have seen you have written on here a few times now. How are you feeling?

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xXUntilTheEndXx said on 09 March 2012

I've booked an appointment with a councillor as i was suspected of being bipolar, i sought out the advice of my friend who is also bipolar i showed similar symptoms as her. I can switch from happy to sad and depressed in the space of a few minutes i constantly feel guilty for no reason, the smallest things can trigger me to another state of mind i have had suicidal thoughts and frequent thoughts of death when in a depressed state. I find that i switch between moods from one extreme to the other without anything in between. I constantly have a tight knot of pain around my chest area which is constantly there, i feel worthless and i have erratic behaviour sometimes i don't know what im feeling, i can feel happy and sad / confused at the same time. I can lash out and regret my actions later on and feel even more guilty for lashing out. sometimes i don't feel like eating or can't be bothered and try to avoid attention other times i need someone elses company. theres more but i can't list it all and some of it is private. Any ideas would be appreciated thank you, also any ways to deal with it would be greatly appreciated.

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midnight fairie said on 26 February 2012

hi im back again i just relly want to know if anyone has any info on sodium valproate.ive been on it nearly 2weeks and im still wound up and really anxious does it get any better please ...........

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midnight fairie said on 21 February 2012

thankyou hapycat101 for your help.i just feel so bad. im on 400mg of sodium valproate and 15mg of olanzapine.im hardly leaving the house and feel anxious does anybody ave anything good to say about sodium valproate.please i would be very grateful

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happycat101 said on 19 February 2012

Hi midnight fairie

It does get better - you just have to hang in there & fight your corner, even though you feel like crap.

I was undiagnosed for years and then went through the entire anti-depressants, valporate etc experience. I did have a lot of support from the mental health team who had worked out what the problem was, but unfortuanately the psychiatrists disagreed.

I was saved by a registrar on his first clinic who promptly diagnosed bipolar, prescibed lithium and I haven't looked back..

I still have bad days but I'm back working, just about making a living, but so much happier and calmer than before

It does get better & life comes back

Take care

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missdd said on 17 February 2012

Im 25 years old and have been suffering from depression badly. I'm angry snappy at the slightest thing I can't stop crying and can get violent then I go to the point of suacidal thoughts. I could be realy happy one minute then bam! I'm like a sico! I don't seem to find stuff funny like I used to .... I've got into debt spending and spending when I can't afford to do it ....... I'm in cohearent when others talk to me I just shout and tell them its all there fault .. lost mates ..... Get told I'm horrible as when I switch there's no turning back for hours sometimes and I feel Shi_y after . But then I still can't controll it when I go . I'm on anti depressants but just seem to not work as well as I think they should ..... Does this sound normal to you cause it doesn't feel normal to me ..... Please help ...

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midnight fairie said on 17 February 2012

thankyou hithyme.ive just had a short stay in hospital due to antidepressants so ive had to stop them and now ive been given sodium valproate its only been few days im just so fed up with the agitation and anxiety i swear i was better without all this medication.does it really get any better im terrified im going to be like this for life i just want peace of mind

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HiThyme said on 15 February 2012

Midnight fairie,

Keep going, it WILL get better.

x

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midnight fairie said on 21 January 2012

well im still here......docs have added an antidepressant to my meds.its only been a few days but um not as adgitated as normal.i feel a lot more sleepy and spaced out.when will i start to feel better or get my old life back not be afraid of going out and eating normally instead of being sick all of the time its crappy.how long does it take to feel normal again anybody got any tips or a few words of encouragement for me please....

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wingnut1st said on 18 January 2012

I am to the point that I need to ask, is my wife bipolar? At times she is hiper active, she can't sit still and relax. She wakes up at 4:30 in the morning and goes to an excrise class then runs in the evening for 1/2 an hour daily. She is always on a "diet" , can't eat fat as an example. Eats a salad for dinner and 1/2 hour later makes oatmeal cookies,(with crisco shorting) eats the raw dough and a few of the cooked cookies then throws out the rest. She spends her mornings getting ready for work and is always looking in the mirror as she puts on make up, that would be normal but she is obessed it seems like. She also picks her fingers around the first joints and leaves open skin. Daily she has angery out bursts aimed at me that seem like she needs to be that way and later she calms down. She is always mad at someone at work or me or our adult children, she uses the word hate all of the time. When she is mad she complains of head achs, she says we give her head achs. She is 55 years old and her father was a pretty mean guy, if that might help. What does she have?

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midnight fairie said on 09 January 2012

im back and bonkers.im sitting waiting for my doc to get back to me.the medication has got me on the edge im so angry and adgitated over nothing everyday is getting worse this has got to be wrong i shouldnt have to be like this all the time has anyone got any useful tips to get through this hard time,.

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Bikerbug said on 29 December 2011

Hi there Im new to this site and I thought I'd pop by to say hello. I've been diagnosed with bipolar for the last 10 years. I've taken every pill they have wanted me to try and I have just completed a 12 week cbt course. I currently take duloxitine, lithium, quietapine, zopiclone and something to Stop the migraines I keep getting! I have felt with the diagnosis for 10 years now I also have multiple personality disorders aswell which has only been found out in the last few months. I have a partner who has absolutely no clue about the problems I face everyday just to get my backside out of bed so I can get my kids to school. I know how helpless Thoes of you feel who do not yet have a diagnosis but in all honestly the diagnosis only changes what medications they try you on it doesnt suddenly provide u will all the answers, Thoes are things u will have to find out yourself. I recently looked into child bipolar and wow I was so shocked it described me perfectly as a child so I think I've pretty much had it all my life. But you do learn how to live with it and how to cope maybe not as well as people who don't have mental health problems but you do learn and you can go on. Sometimes I wish I cud walk round with a bandage on my head so that people would have some visual focus on the fact I have a illness that not only mentally disables me at times but physically aswell the 'hidden disability' what a joke it must of been a well person who came up with that title!! It's not hidden there are lots of physical symptoms that apear it's just that normal or untrained people just don't know either how to look for it or just can't see past their own noses!! I wonder wud they cope with the feelings of wishing so desperately that u hadn't woken up then dealing with a hormonal 10 yr old and a 6 yr old with ADHD and autistic tendancys and then the crap your mind puts out during the day and night. We 'hidden disabilities' ppl are far stronger than we give ourselves credit for.

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midnight fairie said on 19 December 2011

hi im finally back.had the worst few months.ive finally been diagnosed with bipolar i thought it would be a relief but i feel ashamed and though ive been given a life sentence.iv tried quitiapine i thought i was going to kill someone my spending was through the roof all i can say is there will be a few people happy on xmas morning.im now taking olanzapine its not much better and i dont feel like myself anymore nights out are a nightmare i cant drink as i get paranoid and sleepy its crap i wanted help now i feel like a prisoner in my own body.i have therapist cpn and need loads of councilling roll on the good times xxxx

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hello456 said on 14 November 2011

i dont know what is wrong with me, i have had bipolar been suggested by my boyfriend but i dont think it is?
i seem to get very easily stressed about the smallest of things and this can make me feel extremely low
when things go slightly wrong i seem to make it 100 times worse than what it is.. i feel so low sometimes i have thoughts of suicide.
i seem to act irrationally towards my boyfriend alot ive now pushed him away because of this and i dont know why i do these things i feel as if im not in control of my emotions and actions
ive only recently noticed that if im not feeling low im ethier tired or very hyper and annoying.. but these moods can change so quickly which to me says its not bipolar. i tend to talk really fast and jumble my words up alot when im hyper
i really think i need help now, i want to find out whats wrong with me so i can change this and make my life better and others around me too

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Musicalmark said on 11 October 2011

I have been under immense pressure from my family to 'admit' I have bipolar disorder. I have taken the whole situation very seriously and have researched all about the disorder. Maybe I am not 100% but what is certain is I am not being bullied into a corner.
Mental health is not a black and white issue. There are huge stigmas attached to being diagnosed with a disorder. It is the last great unfairness in society and affects job, family life, everything. I adjust my life to fit how I feel and take care of myself.
As far as I am concerned I am just a sensitive person. Denial? Maybe but I prefer that to being labled and losing my driving licence.

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vegasal said on 06 October 2011

I have finally come to the conclusion that I may actually be suffering from bipolar. By admitting it I suppose that it actually makes me feel better in myself strangely enough! I am 46,married and have a 9 year old daughter. Highs and lows a given in my life and suffering with work pressures. I get very angry and depressed especially at work and with other people. A particular episode around 5 years ago certainly got the ball rolling. My wife had a miscarriage and the company I worked for (a very bullying shipping company) were not happy that I took time off. A week later they sacked me ( I was 4 months into the job on a 6 month probationary period). This was October and then in December, just before Xmas, we got burgled. Ever since I do not take well to the slightest indication of bullying at work and this gives me a reputation of being awkward, unapproachable and difficult to work with. Home life is mixed. I absolutely adore my daughter but my wife and I are poles apart. The occasional thought of suicide does come over me around 3 or 4 times a month. All things considered it's difficult to gauge the level of depression that I have as I am up and down frequently. the common approach from me is to grin and bear it but now that I know I have a problem I am going to start making some subtle changes to my lifestyle and see how they go. Don't smoke and rarely drink although on certain occasions like birthdays I'll drink far too much - they call this binge drinking I believe - but need to exercise more especially seeing that I had a major back operation in May 2011 to remove a herniated disc. Oh well, that kind of feels much better getting this off my chest. Thanks for letting me do that and I suppose I'd better get down the swimming pool now for a few lengths!!

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sueschu4 said on 25 September 2011

To littleamelie. I have only just found this site. I hope you have managed to find some help since your August post. Whenever you experience an episode, keep asking for help, even if this means seeing your doctor every day. If you feel they are not doing enough, you can go to a hospital A&E - they should have access to a duty psychiatrist. I am very lucky with my GP, who helps me with referrals. Have you tried using your own GP to help speed things through? I am experiencing an episode myself, so understand the frustrations and anxieties of having to wait for the next appointment.
It can be difficult to do, but think of asking any friends, family and colleagues to help you with this, including going with you to appointments - their objective account could prove very useful in psychiatric assessments. Good luck in getting the help you need.

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plym33 said on 22 September 2011

i have all the symptoms but i feel that the doctor wont belive me and so i put on a front, i can switch moods without warning , and it happens in extremes , when i feel low i just feel like i need to be left alone let alone talk to anyone, its affected my marriage and it affected my army career i just dont know what to do

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plym33 said on 22 September 2011

i have all the symptoms but i feel that the doctor wont belive me and so i put on a front, i can switch moods without warning , and it happens in extremes , when i feel low i just feel like i need to be left alone let alone talk to anyone, its affected my marriage and it affected my army career i just dont know what to do

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littleamelie said on 02 August 2011

I was diagnosed with a "minor form" of bipolar earlier this year. It is minor because I am in a relationship and go to work, and apparently I am coping well with it. I am not, and I told my psychiatrist this. I told him it would help to have someone to talk to, I am struggling to hold down my job, and feel like I am not coping well. I have narrowly avoided having police and ambulences called out when I have been out and had an episode that I couldn't see coming. I need therapy, but not sure how I can go about getting the help I need. I don't see my psych until January, please help, before this gets totally out of control :(

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MrHairy said on 27 July 2011

MJayne,

GPs are not always great at mental health illnesses. You could try finding out about your local mental health team and if you can self refer for an assessment.

Your symptons you write certainly sound like you fit into the bipolar spectrum.

When you do start to feel down then do something you enjoy doing, or go for a walk or other exercise as this will increase the happy chemicals in your brain.

Watch what you eat as this could be having an effect on your mood. The doctors etc will only prescribe medication at the end of the day which are just chemicals. Once you know the chemicals you need to keep you happy (but not too happy) just keep to a balanced diet. For example did you know that four brazil nuts a day can help to keep you happy because of their selenium content. A lack of selenium in the diet can lead to anxiety and depression.

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wilbur44 said on 23 July 2011

can anyone tell me what the protocol is for seeking emergency medical help for bipolar between psychiatric appointments? someone ( not a healthcare professional) told me to go the hospital, but that sounds a bit dramatic. also if i am really depressed i am too phobic to go in the garden, let alone anywhere further. i have looked on this site but i cannot find any information, have i missed it?

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qbob said on 23 July 2011

MJayne,
if you feel very strongly that you are bipolar, it helps to be organised - write down as much as you can about your behaviour and mood swings (ie use a mood diary and make detailed notes if necessary) and remember to be totally honest with your gp about possible symptoms. it's easy to say, i know, but don't be fobbed off - it's an illness, so treat it like any other. go back to your gp (maybe bring a friend/relative for support). if your behaviour is unusual and/or harmful, then you need help. best wishes

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MJayne said on 22 July 2011

I'm a (nearly) 18 year old girl, and I think I may be bipolar. I've done some of the online tests and they tell me I am, and to consult a doctor, but whenever I do consult my GP, they just over look it.

I have weeks of 'up' periods, in which I'm extremely hyperactive. fidgety, irritable, I sleep less, have great self/confidence, do reckless things without thought of how it could harm me, am easily distracted, rapid thought changes, more talkative, very social, I wear more outrageous clothes (for my style) and more make up and have no/few thoughts of deliberate self harm. I'm extremely optimistic and over the top bubbly also. There's also a possibilty that I get delusional, as a recent situation has occured where I am sure something happened, but it didn't.

In my 'down' periods on the other hand, its a drastic change, I have suicidal thoughts and attempts (a lot), self-harm, self-loath and no self-esteem, constant crying or upset, angered easily, very quiet and closed off, seek solitude, highly anxious, always tired, sleep restlessly, eat very little/nothing, confused/unclear thoughts, unable to pay attention/zone out, very distant and absentminded, and care little for my appearance. I'm also very pessimistic and have no hope/faith in anything, and feel worthless or guilty.

Before any of this started I was pretty normal teenager, sometimes hyper but never excessively, had moderate self-esteem, ate and slept regularly, was averagely social (not outgoing but not shy either), and never angry (or if I was I wouldn't show it.)

It's not the fact that I may have bi-polar disorder that's scaring me, it's not knowing whether I have it or not. I don't want things to get worse, and the GPs I see (a different one each time) don't help. I need help to know what to do.

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qbob said on 14 July 2011

User572777
keep a record of your moods (download a mood diary if you need somewhere to start) - it'll help you keep track of how you've been and when (more helpful than you might think -honestly). it'll help you assess your situation more easily and maybe highlight things that trigger a change. also you'll have something to show your doctor that indicates that there is a real, long-term issue/problem that you want addressing asap. good luck :)

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pinkpies said on 13 July 2011

hello all,
im new to this and really am after some advce please.
my mother(63) has been poorly for a ggod couple of months now.
it started with a nasty bout of flu, since having this, she has dramitically chnagfed.
her behaviour has gone from verbal aggressivness, innappropiate sexual talk, mumbling conversations, the inability to concentrate, very controling, angry, obesssions with baking and shopping(but within in her means)
she has displayed quite childlike behaviour also.
my dad(70) doesnt really know how to address this.
she has been to the dr we are waiting for blood test rseults, but she is not aware that she is acting any different, she thinks she is ok, and is reluctant to return to the dr!
i dont know whetether she maybe bipolar or whether im barking up the wrong tree!
i welcome any thought or advice(please only comment in a helpful way).
many thanks to those who take the time to reply.:)

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User572777 said on 12 July 2011

im new to this, i have never asked for help on this scale, i like to keep things to myself, which doesnt help!
i have an appiontment with my doctors and i am scared they wont listen to me i have been diagnosed with depression and stress/depression after the loss of my mother 2 1/2 years ago?
how do i make them listen to me?
i have read up on bipolar and my partner has and we are in conclusions that i may have it! i just dont want to be overlooked and left to deal with this on my own, after all i have dealt with mood swings and depression all my life for as long as i can remeber, and im only 24!
if you can Help please do!! thank you A x

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midnight fairie said on 21 June 2011

well ive been to mental health and ive been discharged from primarycare as i need more help so im now with secondary care.now its the process of waiting to get appt with psychologist.why do things take so long.my spending through the roof and ive started on the drinking again.my mind just doesnt settle ever its annoying.how many more times do i have to destroy things because i have no control.just need to b normal xxx

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midnight fairie said on 09 June 2011

thankyou rosietalk.its horrible ive been to docs got sertraline today roll on the side affects.ive been to c my mental health worker today im on the verge of losing it again im panicky shaky paranoid im crying then high this cant just b depression.ive been to crisis team 2wks ago bec i cut my legs up and ive spent to much money.im seeing cpn on monday but need advice on how do i get a diagnosis im so fed up my partner says im starting to read to much into things im not sleeping or eating and feel adgitated its too much at times.why cant i b normalx

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RosieTalk said on 09 June 2011

midnight fairie,


Try and find someone you can talk to if you are not coping well, like your GP, who can advise you about the next steps to take towards feeling better, or a close friend or relative.

There are people who understand, and who can help you deal with the problems you are experiencing. You can visit www.samaritans.org.uk for advice, email jo@samaritans.co.uk or call 08457 90 90 90.

If you are feeling suicidal, please visit A&E if you are in despair. They will have a crisis team on hand to help you.

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midnight fairie said on 06 June 2011

hi im back ive had such an awful time my depression been unreal been in hospital and had surgery .mental health have weaned me off my anti depres its killing me ive got flu like symptoms electric shocks going on in my head.cant wait to start new meds on thursday.im in a little better phase now but seem to b spending to much again im waiting for my cbt and councilling and everything else to start its just such a long proccess.hoping i will get some kind of diagnosis soon im fed up of being crazy xxxxxxxxx

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qbob said on 03 June 2011

Hi anthonyg87
You need a proper diagnosis - if you are bipolar then antidepressants might make you worse. Diagnosis and treatment plan seem to be part of a fairly slow process anyway, as far as I can tell. Had my first appointment and started meds a month ago now. Feel so scared that I might never feel/act normal. But more scared that I will - that meds will work and I'm gonna have to face up to wasting 20 years of my life feeling like crap and messing everything up when my life could have been much better. wish I'd had help/support years ago.
So good luck with psychiatrist, basically.

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anthonyg87 said on 03 June 2011

Im 24 years old, and quite sure that i suffer with bipolar dissorder.I have constant mood swings and can be so horrible to the people i love.Im often suicidal.im always aggitated and very irritable.I get very angry over the slightest thing and im very paranoid.Feel uncomfortable in social situations when im low but the life and soul when im up.my gp has reffered me to a psychiatrist and prescribed me with anti depressants,she suggested its very possibly bipolar dissorder.I break down in tears for little or no reason,im suicidal and feel completely worthless, sometimes i cut myself and feel like an idiot afterwards i visualize slitting my wrists every single day.but when im in a good mood im on top of the world i make music with my friends talk too much and do stupid things,i know that im doing these things but cant stop myself.im desperate for help cos i know im pushing my girlfriend away with all the accusations and mood swings.And im horrible to my girl and closest family members often for no reason at all.my mind races sometimes and i cant sleep or focus on anything in particular,but a milloion thoughts at the same time.I feel like im losing my mind,sometimes i think im being watched or there are people in the room with me when im alone.I know it can be treated but its so hard to talk to anyone as i get so embarrased and ashamed.ive been like this from about the age of 14 and its hard to see any light at the end of the tunnel,reading these comments tho i see im not the only one.it really helps to know that im not just crazy!! Good luck to you all,i understand exactly what your going through and you have my greatest sympathy.

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david1712 said on 19 May 2011

Mmmm! Just been to see my GP - I'm a very hyperactive 59 year old and have been on Diazepam since 1983.

I also drank a lot of booze 'til 97

I've been to CBT and never been quite open with anyone about the way I am.

I gave my GP a list of what happens to me and also some of my family history - he immediately suspected Bi Polar and now I'm off to see a psychiatrist

I walked out of my GP surgery elated that I had the courage to confess after decades of happiness/darkness

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melsmrs1987 said on 17 May 2011

Hi everyone, like alot of people on here i feel exactly the same. i have not yet been diagnosed with bipolar but have many of the sypmtoms. I am going to a self help group this Monday for bipolar sufferers or for people who believe they have this. I hear that bipolar could take 10 years to fully diagnose!
I hope that I can bring something positive back from this group as I feel so silly and scared to talk to anyone I know. I have this feeling people are going to laugh at me or am i being paranoid?
Anyway guys and gals, I hope that you all find some strength somewhere inside xxx

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Cydi said on 24 April 2011

I've always been really depressed, I never really had the best child hood ever, My dad was an alcoholic, all the violence and abuse. I just feel so low, I feel like everything's my fault, I'm why everything has happened. I hurt the people I love because my moods change just by a click of a finger. I get really angry. I feel so hurt and sad at times for no reason, I've tried to end my life so many times, I've slit my wrist, I've over dosed, Tried too drown myself. I'm just so scared of my own self I just want too know what is wrong with me. I have a friend who is bipolar and she's actually the same as me, Which makes me think am I Bipolar?

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cwilliams2 said on 16 April 2011

Hi, im not sure if I have bipolar. No-one in my family as far as I know has had problems with bipolar which is why im worried. Ive been getting very low lately, and feeling alone all the time, and not wanting to do anything productive in the day. I get up in the morning and think about what im going to do, I have my mind set and I always ending up saying I will do it later and never do it. One minute im so hyper and in such a good modd and the next im on such a low and feel on my own and lonely. I feel I need someone to look after me. I cry myself to sleep at nights and usually go to sleep very late and get up very early. Its only recently ive been feeling like this. Im so worried about my exams that are coming up and feel nothing is going on my head and I cant concentrate. Everything is worrying me. I havent had a good night sleep in weeks, and feel I cant talk to anyone about this. Im very worried as I keep thinking if I was going to kill myself how would I do it. Ive never tried to kill myself before but ive wondered how I would do it. I really need help but I feel I cant talk to my parents or friends. Any advice would be extreamely helpful. Thank you. Would really appreciate any adive.

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STEPHYKINS said on 10 April 2011

Can anyone help me ive been experiencing really low moods and alot of depression as of recent because i was on a high for a while whilst i was working i quit my job because of my mixed moods and because i was to stressed and cause of severe back and foot pain ive been experiencing high and low moods for years now and i have been trying to ignore them hoping they will go away my mum has said she thinks i may have bi polar cause she has it I have spoke to my GP and as lovely as what she was i dont think she truely understands she prescribed me chlomprine 20mg-i think i may have spelled it wrong she reffered me to a phycoligist in January and ive heard nothing back yet im starting to think there never gona get back to me im 20 and i have a good partner and a lovely 2 year old son and i feel like i can mention my feelings to my partner but i dont want to be putting my troubles on him or if i talk to my mum i dont want to be making her life worst and i feel like if i go back to my GP cause they might think im a bad mum i want to feel ok and these mood changes are really effecting me and i want to feel normal again can anyone help me please!!

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misunderstood angel said on 10 April 2011

I find it heart breaking to read some of these comments. I have suffered with horrendous mood swings most of my life. After my husband disappered when I was seven months preganant with my second child I decided I had to seek help through my GP for my children. It has taken almost three years to find a suitable method of controling my Bipolar in a fasion. I say in a fashion but I think I would be dead if it wasn't for my medication. The medication is Lamotrigine. I take 400mgs a day and it has changed my life to a degree that I never imagined. I had abused precription medication, mainly Opiates and Benzodizapines for about ten years previous to this in order to try and manage my mood swings. Being a Terminal Care Nurse made in easy to get hold of. However I kept increasing the dose and managed two crash two cars, destroy the great relationship I had with my family and loose my job. However things have turned around for me now and I am so grateful to the Psychiatrist who got me better. And I am better, life is good and I am looking to the future, planning ahead, something I never envisaged. The point of my message is to give hope to anybody suffering this soul destroying disease which can destroy good peoples lives. I wish you all luck, support from a good Health Professional and medication that changes your life like mine.

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KatieMichelle said on 08 April 2011

Im 16 soon to be 17 and i am undergoing observations at the mental health clinic to confirm that i have Bi-polar 1 dissorder. I have manic episodes and major depressive moods. When in a minic episode i find it hard to define the real world from whats in my head. I take stupid risks and feel out of control or as if im having an outer body experience. It's as if im watching my self do things and knowing i should'nt be but not having the strength to stop myself. When im depresssed i dont have the energy to get out of bed and can lie in bed with the curtains closed doing nothing but stare at the ceiling for days at a time. I find this hard to deal with and very lonely as i dont nknow anyone else with this condition.

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aquarius35 said on 01 March 2011

im very confused as to why i behave the way i do sumtimes, iv suffered depression most of my life and over the last 10 years it has became worse, after a violent, abusive marriage i found myself drinking, taking drugs and having sex with any1 but over the last 5 years its got worse still, my mood changes dramatically from 1 min to the next i can feel on top of the world for a few days with the slightest thing making me feel excited and then depression kicks in and i find it impossible to deal with anything which is a big problem because im married again with 3 children to look after and i go to college full time, iv been on antidepressants for a long time but jus feel like they do nothing for me because what i feel is so much more than depression. i wouldnt say i spend alot of money when feeling on a high i tend to feel the need to flirt and have sex with complete strangers instead no matter how they look or how old they are but when im feeling on a low the guilt overwhelms me and i feel disgusted with myself because when im on a low the thought of sex makes me feel physically sick, i feel like jeykll n hyde and even though i do manage to keep alot hidden from my family i dont know how much longer i can live like this because i love my husband and kids and dont want to be like this anymore.

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midnight fairie said on 09 February 2011

ive spoke to mental health couldnt wait for them to get in touch with me.things are starting togo downhill the racing thoughts,panicking,impulsive buying and terrible bouts of depression for no reason.it felt such a relief to talk and not be judged im so embarrased and ashamed to ive let myself and loved ones down,im meant to b the strong one how good have i been to keep these feelings in and carry on.now ive realised theres something else im not just odd or a recluse like my family have always thought .dreading but relieved that ive spoke out and maybe one day that wierd recluse will be a dark shadow of my past.is it so wrong to just want to b normal i dnt want no lottery win just to get up and not feel like breathing or going out on a high and spending get drunk then realising i need to b home its a nightmare that i want to wake up from.i want to b normal

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midnight fairie said on 31 January 2011

dont know where to start.from being a child my life has been an emotional rollercoaster.my mam was an alcoholic i wasnt wanted ive lived through abuse,domesticviolence,rape,drugs,incest,murder and thats just skimming the surface.im so pleased i found this site now i know this is not meant to b my life.ive suffered depression all my life and am currently taking antidepressents but the panic and self loathing are coming back.after yrs of lying to myself and others ive finally gone to my gp and been honest and have been referred to mental health team.i thought my life was meant to b this way ive selfharmed,took cocaine,drank,wanted to write a novel,refused to get washed or gfo out for long periods my wardrobe cant taka anymore bags,shoes,clothes i need them cant afford them then dont understend why i have them.i need to conquer this i have a wonderful partner who puts up with so much then half the time i dont want him or need him then other times panic when hes not there.its mad bec i have addictions for months then just sort of come out of this dream like state and stop and not b bothered but also not understand why i don e any of it.i also have a beautiful daughter who thinks her mam is always bad at times i take her all over then at min everything is left to my partner i refuse to let it make me miss time with my daughter i love them both and they deserve a better me i desreve a better life.

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angelie94 said on 04 January 2011

can someone please help me?

i'm sixteen, indian origin relatively normal, aside from the fact that i do have very extreme mood swings, sometimes lasting for weeks or months on end - just of either a high or a low. With this- especially on a 'high' often comes mild hallucinations like images or noises. I've been to my GP who noticed self-harm marks and referred me to a adolescent psychiatrist, who so far has not done anyting, just 'prescribed' a course of psychotherapy; which doesn't do anything, but either intensify confusion and anxiety, or patronizes me. the highs are worse than the lows, because i hardly ever actually know what im doing, and this leads to shocking realizations such as spending excessively, etc.

any advice?

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far_away_girl said on 28 December 2010

I think I might have bipolar. I scares me a bit, but not always. I think I am like dollydiamond, because I sometimes get obsessed about things being alphabtical, and think I have a super power. Once I jumped out of a tree, because I thought I could fly when I was really happy, and once I nearly drowned myself in the bath because I was depressed. I'm not just depressed though, sometimes I'm really happy and stupid, then upset. When I'm happy, I sometimes go for over a week without sleeping, but I don't feel tired. When I'm depressed, I can't sleep but wake up hours later than usual, if I go to sleep at about four or five, I might not wake up again til two or even three. I sometimes have these even days, very occasionally, like now, when I'm OK, but still really scared because I remember what I have done in the past, and what I might do again. I nearly slit my wrists, but my best friend caught me, then later on I was horrified. When in mania though, I'm totally different, the me my friends like if it's mild, just a little louder, more optimistic, and happier than other people, but sometimes it's more severe, and I bought a hundred and twenty eight packs of grapes online out of impulse on my parents ocado account until my mum saw and stopped me. I never know why I do things, but I can't stop myself. My friend who saw my suicide attempt thinks I might have bipolar. I'm not 100% sure I agree, but maybe I do. I want the courage to tell my parents or GP, but never seem to find it. I hope I can get some help, if anyone else knows what to do, I really need some help.

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Dollydiamond said on 01 December 2010

Hey, I've been reading all the comments and think i'm related to some of them. for quite some time i have thought that i may have bipolar disorder from the mood swings i started to get late last year. i get irritated and move around constantly, one minute i'll be really happy and excited about things and being silly, and the next minute i go all quite and feel really low and wont want to talk to anyone. i have self harmed in the past, i've also lost interest in some of my favorite activities, sometimes can't be bothered to do anything and think 'what is the point?' i sleep alot!! but sometimes i sleep very little but thats only every so often. sometimes i am determined to things such as time after time i like to be abit of a clean freak. i have a bad memory, sometimes i have racing thought like if something bad has happened i would try to reverse everything to get back to how it was, if that makes sense? i also get stressed about alot of things and panic. i have also thought that i may have some sort of power, might sounds silly, but i always thought it was just my childhood kicking in or the programs i watch. so could someone tell me if there anything is wrong with me please? thanks.

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kathleeenie said on 10 October 2010

Im 18, i have had depression and counselling before, i used to self harm and had panic attacks at school. I got over it but still have periods of feeling depressed.
Recently i have noticed my moods switch very suddenly, the slightest little thing can send me crazy i almost black out and do stupid thihgs and say things without thinking. I make elaborate and detailed plans such as plans to get away, the other day i ended up in the next city and stayed there the night.This can last 10 minutes or a whole day. I keep getting like weird thoughts that i dont seem to be controlling, they fade out and then i forget what it was i was "thinking". I dont eat properly and rarely get hungry. I spoke to my mum about it earlier and she said it may be bipolar, im going to go to the doctors soon. anyone got any idea whats wrong with me? if it could be bipolar?

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Tweety1980 said on 01 October 2010

This is a message for Emilyffion - what you're describing sounds like a mild manic episode (hypomania) and it's important you tell your doctor. All they will do is make sure you get the right treatment - if you go untreated (as my mother has done for years) you could find that you'll end up having a really large manic episode and end up hospitalised for a time (which is now the case with my mother).

I know you're worried about being diagnosed with anything more serious than depression but honestly it's pretty common and you're better off getting the right treatment now to prevent a more debilitating episode later on in life which is very stressful for you and your family.

If it was a physical condition I am sure you wouldn't hesitate to go to your doctor, unfortunately there is more of a stigma with mental illness but it's really no different and requires the same medical attention early on to prevent anything escalating.

Good luck!

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emilyffion said on 28 September 2010

hello i suffer from depression but not sure if it's manic depression or just purely depression. I don't notice my highs as a threat but people around me get quite uncomftable around me, i lauh for no reason, get full of self importance, have hallucinations, i feel overjoyed, excited, amazing, talkative, important and think im some kind of superstar, i haven't told my psychiatrist this because im scared, so he thinks im just suffering from depression, i really want to be diagnosed with the right mental illness, could somebody help?

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zambia66 said on 14 September 2010

i have been diagnosed as cyclothymic. i first thought it meant 'i liked bicycles'. however i now know it is a form of bipolar.

i have experienced the extreme highs and feelings of invincibility and the subsequent extreme lows and feelings of worthlessness and self-loathing.

i've never been keen on medication but i have been using an online system that has proven very helpful indeed. it's free and i would recommend it to all:

www.moodscope.com

it's self-explanatory and simple and easy to use. i now have friends who are not bi-polar who use it too.

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SingingTheBlues said on 13 September 2010

As a Bipolar sufferer I find myself in between a rock and a hard place. If I take medication there is no quality of life - when I do not take medication at least I can have a mania phase, which is a great relief when your suffer from depression. I would not encourage anybody not to take medication or at least try it, as some Bipolars are more acute than others and it is effective. One suggestion could be cognitive behaviour therapy, which I have asked for, but was told there was a long waiting list - far easier to give out a prescription for drugs. This is a false economy you can't always have a 'quick fix' you only get out what you put in.

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noname suits said on 11 September 2010

Hi I am not sure if I have bipolar, I know I have depression and anxiety have done for years, but lately say the last few months I have been doing really stupid things, I cannot stop spending on the internet mainly I cannot be bothered with the housework, I live on my own and have done for a few years, and have been through alot of bad things and lost alot of people. I get happy if I think I might see someone or here from them one min I am high the next so low I take it out on my son,I don't eat for days on end. I sleep as much as I can in the day rather then do somthing. I am up early before the birds sing, I cry for no reason. I never see anyone I have no friends. I cannot be bothered doing the easiest of things, like make a cp of tea, if I run out of food its so what i can do with out, I also self harm. All I do is look back because I cannot see forward, their does not seem to be anything for me I am 50 and feel like I am not just on the shelf but in the cupboard as well. I have terrible thoughts that frighten me, their are times when I feel like smashing the place up, I have done it before, but only my own things, I try not to argue with my son who helps me out, but he will say somthing stupid to me and i wont speak to him or ask for anything, he will offer after we have rowed and I won't except I feel like I am going mad.

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MissLizzie said on 01 September 2010

I was recently diagnosed bipolar, and was scared

my gp told me to keep a mood diary to start monitoring my mood swings, and I went online to find one. I found Mood Panda which is a pretty site with pandas on it, and it isn't as scary as others i tried [i tried about 4 or 5!!!]

after a month on it i feel like im more in control of my emotions and can easily see where i've fluctuated

i'd really recommend a mood diary to anyone, either the one i use http://moodpanda.com or any of the others available online

i hope i will get through this

Jodi x

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xoxo said on 23 August 2010

I'm seventeen, and i think i have bipolar , my mother had it and her mother and her dad , they didn't call it that though all i ever heard was manic , anyway since a could walk and talk i had a horrable childhood most of the time and when i hit my teens i went through more horrable things , i noticed over a period of time there was something wrong with me one minute i was happy , starting writting storys , then songs, then poems, then i was intrested in acting then it jumped and i wanted to party and drink and hurt people that hurt me then i would have a period were i was calm and upset and sorry and i would have clarety that my lifestyle isnt right , this past year i fell in love pushed that person away because of my irrational mood swings and behaviour , lost the respect of my family , constantly felt like i dont belong anywere and i dont know how to handle any of this or what to do all i want to do is drink my stash of alcohol but then i know i find something in me that tells me not to that i need help but i'm afraid i'm already alone with noone to talk to and I never wanted to be like my mum but i feel like i cant stop myself from doing what i'm doing is this bipolar?

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jennimay123 said on 18 August 2010

Hi, I have been researching bipolar for a few weeks now as i realy think i may have the disorder. I dont want to go to my doctor about it just yet, as they have just stuck me on low anti-depressants and not acctepted that i am depressed until the mental health crisis team wrote her a letter. I was wondering if anyone could email me and just chat to me about it, as i read 'DB07's' comment and can relate to what she's saying. Each time i have been to the doctors ive had to try and prove that i am depressed, and one doctors told me that i am obviously depressed if i can have joy in what i am doing. I find myself being happy for a couple of weeks, arranging trips away and things to do, going shopping, having obsessions with certian things, and getting on with my boyfriend well and talk to my freinds, then other days i will pick arguements over anything and do anything to get out of my head, screaming, pulling my hair, self harm, making my self sick. my apetite varies from hardley anything each day, often not eating u ntil 3 in the afternoon, to constanley eating throughout the day even if i am full from my last meal. i would really appreciate all your help and advice. thank you.

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Nia001 said on 07 August 2010

If you are struggling with your bipolar life please read this: I have had bipolar for 12 years. I have had 3 full blown episodes, 2 of which I had to be hospitalised for. (I was in a secure psyche unit for two then four months.) I have not had an episode for 7 years. I’m living proof that bipolar does not have to beat you. Taking the meds used to really bug and frustrate me. Every night was a reminder of my condition, the stupid things I get up to when I’m manic and the fact that I was different to everyone else. The two times I came off my meds resulted in me unwittingly putting my life in danger and then being carted off to the asylum. Without lithium I have no life.If I was born in the Victorian era I would be permanently locked up. My hands shake a bit and I need my sleep more than most. I have a full time job and I am able to go out with my friends. My life is not always sunshine and roses but I am trying to live one and that’s the point. My medications work for me. They prevent the highs and the crippling lows and in that way I am lucky. Doctors are good but when it comes to bipolar, psychiatrists are better. If you are not happy with the meds you are on talk to them. If you are really not happy ask to speak to another consultant. Please check out MDF- the bipolar organisation for useful information on the disorder. It is so important to have the right medication Sleep is also absolutely pivotal to being well. Only my family and two of my friends know about my illness because they have seen it and I think that is another reason why I have stayed well for seven years.If you haven’t experienced the highs and lows and the madness of bipolar, you will never know. Even when I am well I sometimes I get down to the point that the fight I give doesn’t always seem worth it. No one knows the future, you can just do your best. BUT you know what bipolar disorder? I am putting everything I have into forging a life for myself and I will be damned if I ever let you win.

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valentine the destroyer said on 13 July 2010

actually i find the worst thing about having manic depression is the meds.
its been around for ages, how about some meds that dont make you sleepy, lactate, put on weight etc etc
who wants to be fat and leaking and depressed?
seriously.

sorry, im tired and fed up of doctors wanting me to be depressed because im much easier to deal with.

i hate all the pills and the fact that pills are consistently all that i am offered apart from CBT which is less than useless.

sorry, that turned into a bit of a rant.

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cren said on 09 July 2010

i have this condition a hundred percent,i first realised from an early age my moods would swing from extreme over hyperactivity to not wanting to leave my bedroom.Over the years i have had a few relationships and destroyed them all.I am extremely selfish and would reduce partners to tears for no reason.It has come to the point now where i have lost everything including my children because of my behavier.When im having a hyper day i feel like theres nothing i cant do,,the closest feeling would probably be cocaine x1000,and i convince myself i am the greatest peron in the world,,then the next day ill be the opposite and feel worthless and not want to have contact with anyone,i really cant go on like this and i am sick of hurting everyone around me and myself and i am constantly thinking of suicide when im down,,i really need help for this,as i think my life wont last much longer if something isnt done soon,,does anyone have any advice for me please thanku

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harrassedmum said on 01 July 2010

I am concerned about my 25 year old daughter. She told me she has been to the mental health clinic and has been told that they think she is bi-polar. They told her to take the anti-depressants and they will send her a further appointment.

i know she had depression and that is why i got her to come back home as she was in London (she had completed four years at UNI and got her degree) since Uni she has only worked for six months and contantly says she is depressed or has knee cartilage problems.

Since being home she has not worked and it was me that told her to see the doctor about the depression.
She has become friendly with a girl that is an ex heroin user and who is seven months pregnant, from what i gather they smoke cannabis and drink a fair bit, and my daughter does a lot for the girls child as he is only nine.
Also my daughter stays at the girls house on a regular basis and she sees one or two men that take her out to dinner etc,
I told my daughter that i do not think she is bi-polar, I told her to tell the mental health team that she has a cannabis smoking problem but my daughter got argumentive with me and said that cannabis cannot give you mental health problems.
I am not coping with the saga of her mental health issues as i know she attends to the other girls child and helps him with homework also she attends all the baby scans with the girl and the appointments as she has to be monitored as she was an ex-user. I feel that my daughter should be attending to her own health and telling the truth to the mental health team and perhaps then she would get a correct diagnosis of her condition. I cannot get involved as she is an adult and can refer herself to wherever she likes but i am fed up with hearing about this bi-polar disorder when she smokes cannabis and consumes alcohol on a regular basis

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Livi71 said on 03 June 2010

I have been diagnosed as having mixed affective bipolar disorder and it has ruined my life. For many years I was simply down as having depression until a manic episode landed me in hospital against my will of course. I don't believe I have or will ever accept it as I see it as a weakness, I hurt so many people especially those I love, not by saying nasty things but simply by either being in a depressed state or a state where my empathy skills are non existent. I recently started lithium which does seem to be working more so than the depakote and quetiapine combo...still on the depakote and abilify though. Anyone who thinks they are bipolar keep a diary and find a good psychiatrist.........it took years before I found one who listened, thank goodness my old psych retired.

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elddis said on 31 May 2010

for years i have suffered mood swings to the cost of numerous relationships.my latest one has just ended.i always thought i was right when irritated but now realise not.when i am "down" there is no reasoning with me but when i am "high" well my credit card tells that story.i am going to the doctors tomorrow and will tell him/her all i can and hope they can help me as i dont want to spend the rest of my life alone because of this

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secretk said on 27 May 2010

Today I have been to see yet another councillor probably the best I have been to and that’s saying something since I have been on and off anti depressants since I was sixteen and im now 40!!!!!:) I was diagnosed with Bipolar about 7 years ago what a relief to find an explanation for my strange behaviour (thought I was going mad lol) trouble now is everyone is trying to fix me! Make me normal! Control me! Seems to me that it’s as much of a problem to everyone else as it is to me.
When Im happy everyone loves me and when im not they can all go away. I hate taking my meds I don’t feel like me I want my highs have a laugh be spontaneous female behaving badly etc :).
Problem is what follow the euphoria down, down, down the end is nigh; and I want that even less so I guess ill just keep taking my meds :(

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mobileh60 said on 26 May 2010

Is there any help at all for relatives of people with this condition

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Summer9910 said on 11 May 2010

I have recently been diagnosed Bipolar and finally years of craziness finally makes sense.

I love the highs the condition brings but apparently my family and friends view this very differently and have told me I behave totally irrationally.

I have started on some new drugs, including an anti-psychotic, so looks like my life and personality will be changing, I'll miss the old me, we've been together for as long as I can remember.

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topsyturvey said on 17 April 2010

it takes along time for a diagnosis of bipolar to be made and it usually comes from a phyciatrist. I too think i may have bipolar of some kind and have had mood swings from about when i was 20 ish i am now 47 and because i have only been to the doctors when depressed it has never been picked up on i am under a phyciatrist now and have been perscribed depakote to try and balance my mood swings i also keep a mood diary but have looked long and hard into my past and realised i have had the hyper moods causing misery for others and severe debt i am still waiting for a diagnosis. it isn't a nice disorder it can feel great when i am on a high mood shal we say but i always come crashing back down and thats what i hate also the high moods can turn nasty i can't sleep am very agigitated restless argumentative and enjoy and take pleasure in hurting people closest to me

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cyril85 said on 17 April 2010

for the last 20 years i have suffered from sever mood swings and in some of the cases been violent. i suffer from severe jealousy directed at my wife for no reason and reduce her to tears for nothing at all. during our marriage she said that i was like living with jekyl & hyde as no-one ever knew what kind of mood i would be in from day to day. my wife and i have now seperated due to mainly my moods, an affair i had which to this day cannot understand why i did as my wife 7 i at the time were good. i promise the world to everyone & then sometimes don't even bother talking to the same people. i am now on the verge of losing everything in my life that is important and finally realise that i have a problem as i have always thought i was fine and normal. i really need help in understanding what is wrong 7 to work out how to control the severe mood swings and hopefully sort myself out before it is to late. can you please tell me how to deal with this or what steps to take next.

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TITANSMRS said on 14 April 2010

I also think i may be bypolar. I do have autism and my friendships NEVER last and they allways say that i am feling sorry for myself and i am never happy with anything. I remember having an agressive eppisode in my bathroom where i was VERY destructive. I do not remember any of it all i do remember is coming round and there being an abselute mess in my bathroom. I remember the crying thats it and wanting to take my own life. I nerly jumped out of my bedroom window. Please if anyone here knows if i have it or not inform me so i can seek help before things get worse for me.

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Caspar said on 14 April 2010

Dear User448826,
we can't offer medical advice via the comments section, but please consider calling NHS Direct on 0845 46 47 who can give you more specific pointers. Alternatively have a look at the 'External links' listed next to the article above which include Mind http://www.mind.org.uk/ and the Depression Alliance http://www.depressionalliance.org/docs/help/what_is_depression.html

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User448826 said on 13 April 2010

I have suffered from depression for over fives years now and have had prescriptions after prescriptions for anti depressents, yet its never got any better, only having read into bipola am i concerened i might be, i never new about the manic side and confused it for "feeling/getting" better although with in days im yet again considering suiside. my family tell me that even when im happy i scear them because its not a normal happy, i struggle to stay in one place for too long and stay around the same people, im so happy that its uncontrolable i have no respect for my self or for anyone else, and im so sad no one can fix it, i blame everyone and my past, i become angry and scream at everyone have thoughts that terrifie me, i go to the complete extream untill im left with nothing, and then within a day am fine again and carnt understand why people carnt just let it go, forget about it. i constantly look for attention from anyone good or bad looking, old or young and have in the past have even looked for it in the same sex as myself to spite knowing im not gay or would ever be, mainly strangers. i could go on and on about a million other things i do that i carnt explain or justify but for now would just appreciate some advice of anyone that could help me. thanks.

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DB07 said on 04 April 2010

What should I do if the health care professionals I see fail to accept that I'm bi-polar? I went to see a local GP last week and she made me feel like I was lying to her about my condition for some reason. Why would anyone pretend that they are bi-polar? Why did I come out feeling that I somehow needed to convince her that I was bi-polar?

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emac24 said on 13 February 2010

I am very concerned that my friend is bipolar, her mother is and she'd be horrified that i think she is too. She seems to be really low and has been for around a year, everything is negative and its everyones elses fault, she seems quite aggresively angry and intense all the time, ,her speech pattern is very rapid and she fires off hissed statements instead of having a conversation. Its affecting her little one as well who appears too afraid of disapproval to leave her mothers side. I don't know how to broach the subject with her or her husband (who is also a very good friend) She is pregnant again and i don't think she's coping at all. Any ideas or anyone else who's had a similar problem please can you tell me how you dealt with this.

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