Bipolar disorder - Symptoms 

Symptoms of bipolar disorder 

Bipolar disorder is characterised by extreme mood swings. These can range from extreme highs (mania) to extreme lows (depression).

Episodes of mania and depression can often last for several weeks or months. 

Depression

During a period of depression, your symptoms may include:

  • feeling sad and hopeless
  • lacking energy
  • difficulty concentrating and remembering things
  • loss of interest in everyday activities
  • feelings of emptiness or worthlessness
  • feelings of guilt and despair
  • feeling pessimistic about everything
  • self-doubt
  • being delusional, having hallucinations and disturbed or illogical thinking
  • lack of appetite
  • difficulty sleeping
  • waking up early
  • suicidal thoughts

Mania

The manic phase of bipolar disorder may include:

  • feeling very happy, elated or overjoyed
  • talking very quickly
  • feeling full of energy
  • feeling self-important
  • feeling full of great new ideas and having important plans
  • being easily distracted
  • being easily irritated or agitated
  • being delusional, having hallucinations and disturbed or illogical thinking
  • not feeling like sleeping
  • not eating
  • doing things that often have disastrous consequences, such as spending large sums of money on expensive and sometimes unaffordable items
  • making decisions or saying things that are out of character and that others see as being risky or harmful 

Patterns of depression and mania

If you have bipolar disorder, you may have episodes of depression more regularly than episodes of mania, or vice versa. 

Between episodes of depression and mania, you may sometimes have periods where you have a "normal" mood.

The patterns are not always the same and some people may experience:

  • rapid cycling  where a person with bipolar disorder repeatedly swings from a high to low phase quickly without having a "normal" period in between
  • mixed state  where a person with bipolar disorder experiences symptoms of depression and mania together; for example, overactivity with a depressed mood

Living with bipolar disorder

Bipolar disorder is a condition of extremes. A person with the condition may be unaware they are in the manic phase.

After the episode is over, they may be shocked at their behaviour. However, at the time, they may believe other people are being negative or unhelpful.

Some people with bipolar disorder have more frequent and severe episodes than others. The extreme nature of the condition means staying in a job may be difficult and relationships may become strained. There is also an increased risk of suicide.

During episodes of mania and depression, someone with bipolar disorder may experience strange sensations, such as seeing, hearing or smelling things that are not there (hallucinations).

They may also believe things that seem irrational to other people (delusions). These types of symptoms are known as psychosis or a psychotic episode.

Read more about living with bipolar disorder.

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tonk80 said on 10 September 2014

Since I was a teenager (14)ive had episodes of severe depression, i tred to take my own life twice and its never got any easier. These moods can last a long time, at the moment im on a sort of even keel after having a few weeks of being high as a kite, boozing, spending money I hvnt got, not really caring about anyone hurtting those I love. When im as high as a kite i can drive like a lunatic, I loose my temper and just get so angry, other times when Im high im full of good ideas for the future, I could do anything but I soon come crashing down, its exhausting not knowing how im going to feel from one day to the next. Ive been to the docs and have been on anti depressants for years, I went to be tested for bi polar but didnt go through with it as I felt stupid talking about something which seems trivial compared to what some people are going through.Any help

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jessica543 said on 05 August 2014

Lately I've just not felt myself. I'm a very outgoing person and love my friends to bits and love doing things that are out of the ordinary and living a spontaneous life. But recently I haven't been the same, I can feel really down and think about past bad life experiences and run them through my head like they happened yesterday and cry heavily for so long running things through my mind over and over, but once I'm done I can tell myself to stop being daft and feel fine almost instantly. I can also be really happy but the minute someone does something to get me angry, even if it's tiny like telling me to calm down I feel myself losing my temper and getting really wound up to the point where I don't want to be spoken too or touched and I don't want to be around people, but again when I realise I'm being daft I can be fine within seconds. Then other times I get bursts of random energy where I want to be spontaneous and crazy and make the most of of the current seconds, but if the people around me don't feel the same it really irritates me and I go into a state of being down and angry at them to the point where I don't want to talk or be around them, yet it isn't there fault they're not in the same overly happy/hyperactive phase like me. And finally, sometimes I feel like I'm watching myself, like I make decisions I know I would never do and I can't help but do them, then afterwards I hate myself and tell myself I shouldn't be so stupid yet all along I wanted to stop myself I just couldn't? I just don't feel myself, I feel like I need constant reassurance and attention and people around me need to feel how I feel or I get agitated and confused and really angry. I know I've rambled but it's the best I can explain, putting how I feel into words isn't easy at all. (I'm 16)

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Missv90 said on 27 July 2014

Sophie sounds like you do have depression go to your doctor definitely and they will help you with what is best option for you. I have been at the doctor for depression on and off for a few years I'll go on to tablets but then when I'm on a massive roll of being happy I think I don't need them anymore and come off them without consulting doc then when she rings me to ask what's going on I'll just say don't need them anymore and she hates me doing this as your supposed to wean off them as it can actually make you worse going cold turkey!!! Anyway last week I was having a major high loving life etc then by Friday bang I have been stuck in a huge downer, crying all e time, cutting off from everyone, feeling suicidal although I know I wouldn't do it as couldn't put my children through the pain so yeah I am back off to doctor tommorow to get some help once again but this time I am going to try and keep up with tablets and stop thinking I know best. I am awful to my partner at minute so nasty and cruel because I hate being without him when I am like this I envy when he goes out and start raging at him that he's lying about where he is etc so suppose another side effect is paranoia anyway my head is all over the shot at minute typing through these tears and my brain is doing overtime and burning out but thought I'd experience my personal journey hope you all get sorted :)

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Eastcoastjay said on 23 June 2014

Kezrahboo I am in pretty much the same situation, have been on anti depressants for few years now and they don't seem to be having any effect now, done the annoying self diagnosis through the internet and everything with bi polar is what I am now or do experience, I'm scared what might happen if this is the case and not picked up on but not sure how to tell the doc that this is what I think it is without the doc thinking I'm telling them their job, I am 100% certain this is what is wrong with me and just want to get it dealt with! I'm 42 and can't go on like this forever. If anyone out there can offer advice or help I would appreciate it, I tried to get myself admitted to hospital on Friday night I was that down and didn't want to be in a situation where I could make things worse.

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kezrahboo said on 17 June 2014

I was wondering if anyone could possibly help me? I have suffered with varying mood swings since I can remember but they seem to have gotten worse as I have gotten older. I will go through phases of creating great plans, thinking I can do this, do that and make lots of money or spend lots of moneym changing my lifestyle, changing things about me like eating well, exercising everyday and my mood is heightened and I feel fantastic, then all of a sudden I will drop where I just feel like crying most of the days and just feel very low. My thoughts race through my mind, like they are trying to get out but I cannot explain them quick enough and I always think I need to do something really quick, My doctor diagnosed depression but I am just wondering how you can go to your doctor and ask about Bipolar.....I am not sure how to approach it. My mum has said to me that she has known that I can be slightly odd and that it could be a possibility. Any help is greatly appreciated.

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sophie106 said on 19 May 2014

I strongly believe that I have depression. I have gone through several years of self-harming and feelings of no self-worth. However, these feelings seem to come and go. For a few weeks at a time, I will feel like I want to talk to no one and like there is a huge weight on my shoulders. I will be upset a lot, get irritated easily, not have a lot of motivation and be angry at myself and others for no apparent reason. I also go through periods of motivation, where I want to make changes in my life, I go to yoga, eat really healthily and strive to do well in everything I do. The most recent 'depressed' episode was at the end of March for 2-3 weeks where I felt utterly worthless. I stopped talking to a lot of my friends because I just couldn't bring myself to have meaningless conversations with them. However, during the first weeks of April, I felt great. There are a lot of issues in our friendship group (anorexia, abuse etc.) and it can be very intense at times so I'm not sure if it was down to the 'break' from them that really lifted my mood. Occasionally I have periods of anxiety, mainly during the times when I feel depressed. I get anxious about people looking at me, watching me eat and knowing that something is wrong. I have not seen a GP/healthcare professional about any of these feelings but I would like some advice/guidance on the symptoms that I feel. I am 18 years old, I am taking a gap year and I would like to be able to go to uni feeling confident that I am able to manage these problems.

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Jim Mcguffin said on 28 March 2014

I am 16 years old and I think I might have bipolar or something along those lines. I have no reason to feel sad or be irritated and angry all the time but it seems that is what is happening. When I am with my family I get really fed up with them and jut stay in my room all the time but when I am with my friends I feel fine and happy, i am not shy around them and feel confident. As soon as I leave my friends I get anxious and worried about what they say behind my back and what other people are saying about me, especially if I am sat at the front of the class because everyone can see me. When this feeling gets really really bad it seems that the ceiling is very low down and I feel very very clostrophobic and I can't concerntrate in class(which is bad because this is my final GCSE year) my mum thinks it is just some hormone thing and wants to take me to the doctor for blood tests ect. My dad thinks it's one of those teenage things that everyone goes through. I can't help feeli as if they are wrong because I am very sad and irritated and tired all of the bloody time and I am fed up with it. As soon as my friends are with me I am fine though which makes me think that it might be something bipolar related. I constantly think about death but I am not suicidal because I am scared of dying yet I am always thinking about the pain of it and how I would like to die. I have told two of my close friends and they are supportive but one is very sad all the time too and the other is depressed and self harms on a regular basis dye to family problems. Some advice would be appreciated because I think it is just melting me inside and I can't deal with it anymore. Thanks.

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Sara123456789 said on 08 March 2014

I suspect my husband has bipolar but i am not sure. He gets very easily irritated when i criticise what he says. For example i can see he has lied and when i question him he loses he loses his temper and starts saying all sorts of stuff, break things around him, hits himself and sometimes starts crying. He calls it having a black out. He has very bad sleeping pattern and most times is up most the night. He has very little interest in sex and i think he finds it hard being close someone. In groups he is very bubbly. I love him so much but im always anxious and i dont know why with him. he has just walked out of our relationship with no words or anything. I dont know if im to blame but i feel his actions are not normal either and dont know how to help

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charlie robinson said on 04 March 2014

Hey i really hope someone could reply with an opinion but i am almost 17 this year this past week i have been crying my eyes out over nothing i will just sit in my bed and cry i have very weird thoughts in my head like murder and ghost and demons but then i would be normal but no energy but I've noticed today and yesterday i have perked up a lot i have attempted suicided 3 times but this was earlier last year i felt i couldn't do anything and i was going to fail school i still have thoughts if i should kill myself or not it scares me a lot if I'm honest i have self harmed in the past I've been about 2 months clean but i tend to throw my phone at my wall which now i have a couple holes in I'm a very paranoid and jumpy person i haven't been eating at all today i only had a sausage roll and a little bit of steak and like 8 chips and i wasn't full but i didn't want to eat anymore I've noticed i haven't eaten a lot in the past couples days i asked my mum if it was strange to not want to eat even though I'm hungry i also told my mum about my ''bipolar'' behaviour the other night i was really happy jumping around and in a matter of seconds i was angry i was crying and i was hitting things over nothing people may say its just hormones but tbh when I'm on my period I'm happy and people find that strange ( i know this is very rambled ) i just need an opinion from someone

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Gee141 said on 03 January 2014

To Dwally42 I am so sorry to read your comment. Perhaps your wife is extremely depressed and hiding it to others beneath the make-up etc, although others may probably have noticed certain changes. I know because I live and work like this on a day to day basis. So far, my partner hasn't left me. I often want to run away, leave etc but my situation is too difficult to do that. And later I am always glad that I didn't do it. So, my only advice to you would to not give up on her, be there, or wait for her. She will realise at some point that she needs to speak to her doctor again (if it is depression, or bipolar). All the best!

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dwally42 said on 12 November 2013

Never thought I would need to use one of these site's.
Please can any one help me,my wife and I have been together 21 years and 4 weeks ago she told me she no longer has any love for me and wants me to leave.After a month of my trying everything and her carrying on as if nothing had happened I did as she asked and moved out !!.She has had a very taumatic 18 months with several lady operations and loads of cockups.so a lack of intermasey.She was diagnosed with depression earlier in the year and I noticed a change this i think was due to drinking on meds and then stopping them because she was feeling great and had nothing wrong with her (her opinion).refused to go to Dr or back to councelling.2 weeks before the bomb shell she spent £14000 on a new car apparently knowing that she was going to get rid of me.
Trying to get the docs involved as when out and about or at home seems manic,forgetfull,makes bad life decissions and spending patterns,always trying to keep busy and finding things to do, totally out of character.Yet at work admits to putting on the makeup to look normal and as she says putting on a pantomime and just works as hard as she can all day.
I love her to bits and everyone has told her to consider her actions as she is wrong but she will not speak to anyone,even her mother.
Any advice will be helpfull as I trying to now take a step back.

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penguin58 said on 07 October 2013

I am in my bed crying dont know I am having such mood swing and have just got worse since starting a disabled day centre find new thing so hard and do not know whats wrong with me I get depression was doing well just got bad again am so scared that they are talking about me came home today feeling rubbish and no one to talk to reading other people's comments I feel I need to see doc and it not just me thanks guys you have helped me out go back to doc as was feeling life was not worth it reading what you said has stopped from doing anything silly

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feelingloopysam said on 14 June 2013

I know how u all feel ive been So down for years but in the next breath im having a laugh i have to take sleeping tablets to doze off but still wake up early i decided to see my doc today and out of no where i just said i think im tapped in the head cos i wana die i told him i never wud i cud not do that to my family and id feel guilty and started crying for no reason and he said hes booking me to see a head doctor as he thinks i have bipolar disorder i just know im ment to have a good life i spend to much money on shiny objects but the joys go away and then im super sad its constant all the time i hate it

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growingpains said on 13 June 2013

I am 16 and I have most of the symptoms above
I started self harming last year as a result of a lot of hard family issues then getting forced to leave from a group I joined I got angry and punched a wall and dislocated my knuckle when I was in the hospital 20 minits later I was laughing and this bizzare feeling took over me off happiness after this I had depression I wasn't eating I was sleeping the days away I would be in bed all day and only move to use the bathroom in school I didn't feel happy I felt useless and gaveup and was failing in everything then suddenly on my way to my next class ide have an outburst of energy jumping around laughing and feeling really motivated but at the same time I knew I wud feel low after this phase , I often tend to overthink ive attempted suiside once , I get a lot of praise for the good things I do for the people of my community but I always feel like people will not change there mind and see the wrong side of things so I will go really low and cry for hours I will think who cares about me and stuff over a year now and I still carry this guilt with me and have immidate highs then lows the only time when Id say I feel normal is when im consentrated on a difficult task after a while I give up tho , my friends mum suffers from bipolar and she suggested I have bipolar from the way I explained how I feel and the way she saw how I was behaving , I wonder because I have a high iq am I just over thinking I have a very low immune system and a very bad temper I some times have intrest in things such as murder then I relise its disturbing I will do something bad and not stop then go away and instantly regret it I usually cant remember saying or doing things sometimes I feel selfish and feel like I need to punish my self other times I have this overwhelming love feeling and think god is good see the good side in everything feeling really happy, im really confused can anyone offer me any advise or perhaps suggest if this is bipolar or not

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Blondevicks said on 17 May 2013

I have very bad downs since I was 14 yrs old. I always just said its depression. Well I never took in to account I also have moments of serious happiness I would become very talkative and spoke very fast. I would see brighter colours in object they just seemed to be very bright and colourful. But I get very insecure, hate my self and non stop ridiculous crying. I felt mad literally I didn't feel normal. I always remember it was the fair one night was happy excited hyper I was static. I got home looked in my wardrobe. Couldn't find any trousers to wear I screamed felt angry and locked my self in the bathroom light off and crying, I felt life just wasn't worth living, as ridiculous as it sounded. Generally I'm a happy person. I finally seen a go and got referred and put straight on to medication. I'm much better still have the odd moment. But I actually can't believe I was like that because I'm not really now! But I still have some symptoms example; I went in to my bathroom last night and I have 9 half used tooth pastes, 10 half used hand washes and a crazy amount of exspensive make up. I can't help but buy new stuff all the time. But with help From my family they make sure I dnt go over board on my buying. So if you have symptoms like mine deffonately go and see some one!!!!

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User770153 said on 03 May 2013

I suffer from bipolar and I'd like to point out to many of the people worrying that they have it on here that it is a common misconception that bipolar is 'up one minute down the next.' People who suffer usually have episodes that last from weeks to months. There are a lot of young people posting on here, and my best advice would be to go and see your gp. It's very hard as a teenager to be taken seriously with your feelings as its often put down to a teenage phase, but even if this is true, those feelings can be extremely distressing and it might be helpful to speak to someone. However, don't diagnose yourself from the internet, no one can diagnose you other than a mental health professional (psychiatrist). Take care all.

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mostafa112 said on 03 April 2013

For long time I tried forgetting that I have manic depressive disorder, I didn’t know why! May be I thought that forgetting will make me don’t feel manic depressive disorder symptoms! It was silly belief, I lived manic depressive disorder symptoms gain and again, I can't deceive my self, but I never told any one about my illness.

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cm1998 said on 24 February 2013

I am 14 I'm not even sure I have a bipolar disorder but I suffer from quite a lot of symptoms.
My family always yell at me for being lazy because I am quite tired most of the time, they ask me to do certain things but I forget to do them or I get round to it and something distracts me. I feel so angry sometimes for no apparent reasonand I sometimes wonder would any one care if I wasn't even here still and think about suicide.
In my high moods I say that I'm going to go jogging or build something but suddenly I can't be bothered or I forget what Ive even said. My mum says she's worried about me because most weekends I don't hang around with my friends. At school my friends start talking and I just sit on my own because it don't feel like talking and my friends really annoy me just for saying or doing something . I do things sometimes and don't think about the consequences which sometimes gets me into trouble. At parents evening all my teachers described me as quiet and well behaved but that's just because I feel so sad inside or I am thinking about too many things at once that I don't feel like doing anything else. I don't want to tell my mum as she may think I'm over reacting but if I'm certain I have a mental health problem I will tell her. I will try recording my moods in a book as another has but any advice is much appreciated.
Thanks.

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sombodyhelpme said on 11 January 2013

I'm 16 years old, and for the past year and a half I've suffered from 90% of these symptoms, I've had random ups and downs, I've read about Bipolar and explained this to my mum who doesn't think I could have it.
I've recently decided to write how I feel during the days and track my moods. which has turned out to show I spend very little time in a "normal" mood.
All this week I've had suicidal tendencies, thinking I can get away from the other feelings by suicide.
Because of my random mood changes, nobody talks to me, which makes me feel worthless and un-needed, which then makes me suicidal again.

"its like a constant nightmare, there's no escape" this is what I put down as a depressive cycle on my mood tracker, should I go to a GP and see if I am Bipolar?

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needssomeadvice said on 09 December 2012

I need some advice. I'm 16.
I don't know what is wrong with me. To others around me, i'm happy and upbeat, but they never know what is going on in my head. I feel very alone and whilst I love being around people, sometimes, I just hate their guts and everything about everyone annoys me. I don't know why this is. A recent example would be an argument I had over 54p. I just got so angry over nothing and I never used to be like this. I was always the innocent pinky child. I wore all the little sweet dresses. Now I just feel very lost and whilst i'm happy sometimes, my head is giving me conflicting ideologies. I feel so saddened by this. I lose friends so quickly because I am so irritable.
Another problem is that I am so organised one minute and the next minute i've lost all energy and 'umph' to do anything. I procrastinate sooo much. I tried to attempt suicide in the summer by cutting. I just lost control of my hands. It was awful. I'm tearing my family apart.
However, despite all my research and lack of control over myself, my parents just say it is teenage angst. What do I do? Go to the doctors secretly or tell then my thoughts? Please help me. I'm so lost and scared by myself. A reply would be great.

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whiteroseali said on 15 September 2012

finally i have sat down and found this site...i have been told by family and close friends that i have this illness..i guess i didnt want to admit it really...i have 4 children,2 of which have been diagnosed..all of the above rings true,mood swings,anger,lack of sleep,wanting to harm myself..thinking that im unloved and unwanted..a mistake! i drink alcohol to make me feel better,and often it has the opposite effect...im also agrophobic,although i do keep a job down..i am extremely lonely,but find it hard to make friends,those i do,i lose because i ignore texts and calls.i just panic about what to say! i also, like some of you guys lock myself away in a dark room with only books for company..i really dont want to be like this,im 44 now.when im ok,i will do anything for anybody..but i could never ask for help.i cringe at the thought..i want to be a good person and happy to be around,not a weeping waste of space..just hope for some sunshine in my life and not living in the dark..

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nimm said on 15 August 2012

i suffer from highs but mostly lows i become 2 different people, im 30 now and i started self harming when i was 13 not understanding what i was doing. I have never bothered to put a name to what I go throuh and am good at hiding it. This changed up untill I had an extreme low where I started pulling my hair out and screaming infront of my 2 daughters, I could not believe I did that, this has made me realise I need to act before I go too far and am building up the courage to see my doctor. I still feel suicidal, when i get low i lose my mind but the only thing stopping me from trying to self harm is my girls. Who will take care of them?

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MaisieMac said on 26 July 2012

Every instinct in me is against me doing this but i desperately want an outsiders opinion on this . . .

I am currently 17 years old and when i look at the symptoms of bipolar i only suffer from a few but the ones i do suffer from are life restricting. I suffer from the basic principle of being high and then low throughout periods of time, however mine can be and often are within minutes of each other. I can br completely sobbing one moment but estatic the next. I try to keep the low points bottled in and to myself as im not very good at expressing emotions to people which has resulted in people thinking of me as heartless which really is not the case.

One particular symptom which is debilitating is being constantly irritated by things that other people would consider normal such as the sound of any eating or drinking, the sound of typing and people being fidgety. This causes an uncontrollable rage within me whereby i have to release the tension by pretending to go to the toilet and having a short burst cry or punching my palms or even pulling at my hair in some cases. This causes serious qrguments between me and my family as they percieve my behaviour as irrational which is totally correct but they find it difficult to see it from my perspective. This has resulted in me walking out in the middle of meals or breaking down and having to come up with a lie as a reason for my behaviour. This causea serious lows, never suicidal but to the point where i wont sleep and ill just uncontrolably sob.

Aswell as this, i am also concerned that i am suffering from social anxiety disorder which in a way makes me feel more distant from people.

Just to write this comment has taken me a while so any input or comment would be much appreciated.

Apologies for thia being so long winded!!

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gingeyguy said on 18 July 2012

Can anyone please advise. My boyfriend of the last 16 months suffers with Bipolar. He is a wonderful guy but from time to time he drinks excesivelly. He is on Citalipram and another tablet for his dissorder that also combines a sleeping aditive. When he drinks it is tho he changes into another person. His whole facial expression changes.......Is this normal and one other thing he always seems as though he has to be the one in control in our relationship. If I do anything that does not involve him or is my decission he flies on the handle......Any help would be greatly appreciated

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User349047 said on 07 July 2012

Ever since I left school when I was 18, and had no formal structure anymore, i started falling apart. I am now 40. I have had periods of my life in bed, lost jobs, been signed off with 'stress', been diagnosed with postnatal depression, postnatal anxiety, depression. I am on Citalopram now, been so for 1 year. i get the lows and highs but I am now awre of what is going on. The counselling helped me to accept the highs and lows. But I still ahve them and I feel very sad and lonely. I get no affection from my other half, but obviously loads from my kids :) I am Mrs Energy one moment, and lifeless the next. I arrnage tons of stuff and shop like mad and party animal, then I want to sleep and hide. My heart just wants to love and be loved, but all i seem to do is offend or be seen as bubbly as fun. i wld dearly like a diagnosis so i cld at least feel like there is a reson for all this heartache, abd that i am not this dreadful person my hubby sees me as, thank you

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sapphire26 said on 26 June 2012

Hummm ok... I am due to get married really soon although 2 weeks before my time of the month, every month i cant bear to be around him, everything he does annoys me, even hearing him breath, when we argue im so irrational, i know at that moment i am being nasty but dont care, just keep going to i hurt the one i love, i get soo frustrated, so aggrivated soo quickly, then 15 mins later im apologising.... and just something soo simple can set me off again! im a professional with a stressful job and when i feel i have too much on my plate, i shut myself off from everyone, become sooo cold, no emotions, care about no one... i somehow feel its just a hormonal thing as the other 2 weeks im soo in love and even tell my fiance how great he is, to which he replies, "im like this all the time but you constantly feel like im getting at you" which is how it feels, if he does something to help i feel that hes saying i cant do it myself... i cant keep living like this its not fair on him... btw i am in my rational sense of mind now!! Soo i now wonder is there something more underlying here other than being a frustrated female.. can anyone help? to everyone i am the most friendly, bubbly and nicest person they have ever met, but at home its not who i am... :( arrgghhh

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Danny Cavalli said on 18 June 2012

I have been on Citalopram since November last year. I decided to take anti depressants as I felt I wasn't getting any better, mentally and thought it would help. It has, but I have not been well for many years. I left my job in 2010, a loved one passed away, but my mental health was declining.

I've always coped well with the mood swings I have encountered and people just put it down to my personality. I am known as being a really friendly, lovely person in work and by friends but when alone at home I would languish in depression, feeling like I was not worthy, hopeless, a waste of space and suicidal.

I held down a professional job and even now, if I was to apply for the role I feel like I wouldn't be able to wash windows - let alone do the job I used to. I have just started to come out of a black period having spent the weekend in bed, curtains drawn, just feeling miserable.

I feel as though I am back on the up again. Prior to spending the weekend in bed I felt my mood lifting considerably only for it to crash down. I have arranged to see my GP to investigate the possibility of bipolar. My mother has even asked if I have it based on my mood and friends have commented on it also now following concern. I just cannot go on with this, my quality of life if getting worse - I've had this for twenty years, always telling myself to pull myself together.

My history is one of many professional roles, all contracting for periods at a time. I have moved perhaps 20 times in as many years, if not more and due to my unhappiness, I spent and spent only to go bankrupt 8 years ago. Friends say I am always searching... when really the problem is with me, and I hope I can get the help I need. Mental illness is truly awful. I would much rather had a permanently broken foot then feel like this.

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mr kh said on 15 May 2012

I suffered with paranoid delusions and mood swings for years. I finally seeked for professional help and was diagnosed bipolar and paranoid schizophrenia when i was 25. Living with bipolar has been hard to say the least especially when it comes to romantic relationships and challenging jobs. The condition has had a chronic affect my relationships, employment and personality. I believe drug abuse was a contributing factor I'd smoked cannabis from age of 16 and took steroids when iwas 24. I think that the ealier u seek help and gain support from close family and friends the better equipped you are to deal with it..

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karsteine said on 01 April 2012

Dont always take the symptoms as possable being bipolar, 6yrs ago i myself thought i was suffering from bipolar had near on all the symptoms...but it wasnt until i seen a specialist i was diagnosed with adult a.d.h.d, but conditions are borderline with each other and can be easy mistaken for one or the other as symptoms are very much the same.

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posideon said on 04 March 2012

There are some extremely poignant descriptions here. I think it is natural to crave the certainty and focus that a diagnosis provides; however I would issue a note of caution.
I would, whilst understanding your reasons for doing so, dissuade you from diagnosing yourself, especially with an illness as serious as Bipolar Disorder. It really is important for the efficacy of your treatment that a diagnosis is given by an Approved Mental Health Professional or doctor.
It is true that often people live with it for years without it being known.It is also true that wrongful diagnoses are given especially as Bipolar shares some symptoms with schizophrenia and severe depression.
I would basically recommend attempt to get a sense of your diagnosis and treatment options as quickly as possible through a GP. If you require support to do this or additional advice there are numerous mental health charities which specialise in advocacy and holistic support. If you feel let down by the NHS services available these organisations can also help you access alternative support or ensure that your health practitioners take your concerns more seriously.
Request a review of your treatment if you feel you are not being heard. Change GP if you have to to. Write a complaint or consider getting in touch with some advocacy organisations to help you access suitable treatment (eg Mind). But please, do not give up.
I wish all of you the best for now, and for the future. x

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justwannascream said on 12 February 2012

could someone help or advice me on what to do, my head is all over the place, ive been suffering with bad depression for a few years now, im on anti d's but i suspect after reading up on bipolar that i suffer this, before i got seriously depressed i was on a high didnt care what people thought of me and doing things that i know is wrong, spending money that i havent got, and im in debt now, since becoming severely down ive struggled going out the house, suicidal thoughts aswell, that has been going since i had my first child in 05 i now have 4 children who have suffered my down spirals, but these last few months my moods have been up and down, one minute im so high and the next it feels like ive had a tonne weight dropped on me.. this might be hard to understand as im not very good at talking about how i feel. could someone please help im going out of my mind..

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Reckless said on 10 February 2012

@vanished

i know just how you feel

do you have any advice on what i can do about it?

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mother1 said on 30 January 2012

I ventured on this page as I suspect my 15 year old daughter has bi polar, I recognise the symptoms as I have siblings who are bi polar. I am taking her to the doctors tomorrow. I am deeply concerned with the amount of young people who seem to experiencing symptoms and feel helpless to talk to anyone. Please please try to talk to someone. Why not print of some information and give it to a parent and just tell them this is how you are feeling. I'm sure they will try everything to try and help. if you cant talk to a parent, take the info to your GP/Teacher/family member or friend who can assist you to get help. It is important. Don't give up. My thoughts are with you all. xx

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vanished said on 28 January 2012

@Reckless, I feel like that all the time.. Some days, I feel really good and nothing in my way could stop me!! Oooh yeah :oD But then something or someone just triggers it off and then I am stopping in, close the curtains, stay alone and wishing I was never born. Recently, in my mood swings been happening so quickly between them "depression & mania" meaning it used to be days or weeks but now it could happens in hours or mins. At the moment I have depressed but hours before I was laughing & joking and thinking "what the hell" :o) and this morning I was thinking suicidal thoughts. I need help and waiting to see psychology services for over 1yr but the waiting list is absolutely massive!

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Reckless said on 26 January 2012

I feel a little strange writing on here but...

i think i might have bipolar disorder about 2 years ago i went to the doctors because i was feeling really down and he only gave me a leaflet! since then I've struggled with self harm, anorexia, my parents divorce, illness, losing my best friend and someone very close to me contracting cancer. I've stopped self harming now for the sake of the people i love but i now have no way of coping with my emotions. sometimes i feel like i just want to give up on everything and sometimes i'm on top of the world and i just don't know what to do about it. i'm a bit unsure about going back to the doctors because they were so unhelpful last time and my school have said they'd get me a Councillor but that was 3 months ago so i doubt that that's going to happen.

if anyone has any comments or advice it'd be much appreciated. thankyou

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Reckless said on 26 January 2012

i went to the doctors over a year ago to ask about depression because of the way i'd been feeling and was given a leaflet. since then I've struggled with self harm, ,under eating, my parents divorce, illness and losing my best friend. I've stopped self harming but the feelings of extreme sadness, loneliness, worthlessness, and self hatred have not gone away. some times i feel like i want to give up on everything and sometimes i'm happier than I've ever been. i have always wondered if i have bipolar disorder but have been nervous about going back to the doctor about it.

i wad a bit unsure about commenting on here and i'd like anyone's opinion on what i should do. any comments would be appreciated

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WheresThatGuy said on 26 January 2012

Hey @GDannatt,

First up, I think it's epic that you've gone out of your way to look out for your friend and show some concern.

I think it's safe to say that anyone suffering bipolar would love to have friends like you, it's just sometimes we might not like to be told somebody else thinks "something is wrong" with us.

If she's having trouble opening up to you, don't force it upon her, just be there for her however you can and let her know that you're there to talk, without directly telling her you think she's bipolar - leave that for a doctor/psychiatrist.

I'm sure once she knows you're there, and you're supporting her even if she hasn't asked for it just by being around, she will eventually (hopefully) seek help if she thinks it is necessary.

Do keep an eye on here though, and monitor her behaviour to see if she's withdrawing or potentially harming herself - in this case don't leave her alone and seek professional help immediately.

I hope this helps, she's lucky to have somebody so caring.

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Gdannatt said on 11 January 2012

I'm 15 but my best mate seems to have huge mood swings she had a depression about a year ago but she tells me she is fine now one minute she will be so happy going crazy and the next she will be say there not wanting to talk to anyone. When she was diagnosed as depressed she told me that she had thoughts about suicide and that she didn't have any reason to be alive anymore. I came on here and saw that she had several of the symptoms for bipolar and I'm wondering if I should try and talk to her about it? But what do I do if she is bipolar because she doesn't like talking about her feelings to people? I don't want to leave her to suffer by herself but I'm worried about making it worse. With our exams at the moment she always goes on about how she knows she will do bad and she has never said a positive word about it I try to make her feel good about them but she doesn't want to listen...I just don't know what to do.

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KatieEdwards said on 02 December 2011

My Auntie suffers from this condition, I have been feeling what the symptoms have described. I have felt depressed and very sad for 1 day then next I was very happy and then today I have felt very depressed, tired, sad and feel like I want to cry. Is this bipolar? Please Help, I am 15

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sjane said on 09 November 2011

I beleieve my mum has bipolar or very bad depression. She lives with me and my family and for the last couple of years it has been a living nightmare as she will not seek medical advice, so I feel very alone & it is causing really bad feelings between all of us. We lost my dad a few years ago and still think she is still greiving which is understandable but not very healthy.

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beanus de milo said on 12 October 2011

Plym33, please go and see your doctor. I suffered so much before my husband made the decision that we couldn't cope with it on our own any more (3 suicide attempts, being extremely abusive to him) and so I went and they prescribed pills and put me under a psychiatrist. I also had anger management classes and went to see psychiatrist nurses every week. The change was unbelievable. What I think may help you is if you write down how you are feeling, no matter how stupid it seems to you and then when you see the doctor just give him/her the letter. Say you find things hard to talk about and then they can start helping you.

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plym33 said on 25 September 2011

i even hear my kids calling even when they are asleep and alos think people are calling me when they are not , this is when im really down

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plym33 said on 25 September 2011

i even hear my kids calling even when they are asleep and alos think people are calling me when they are not , this is when im really down

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plym33 said on 22 September 2011

im 33 i have felt these symptoms ever since i was a teenager , i thought it was just me , i get down a lot not having the connfidence to make a lot of friends , when im in a good mood i spend money, basically cover a;; the symptoms it effected the army and my marriage , all i was told was its depression but reading the info here im just wondering if i am bipolar please can someone help me, i feel like i cant talk to anyone

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plym33 said on 22 September 2011

i am 33 and i had these symptoms all my life, when im bad i feel like i need to hide, it has ruined my army career, and affected my marriage i cant even speak to a doctor thinking im wasting there time. then on the other scale im bouncing off the walls , talk too fast get cross at little minor things and concentrate. im not very good a writing how im feeling so i havent put everything down thinking that i wasting everyones time , i dont know what to do and dont want to trouble the doctors as they dont seem to listen , what can i do

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plym33 said on 22 September 2011

i feel exactly what the symptoms state but when i feel down i just dont have the energy to even think of talking to anyone , i always think its wasting there time , iits affected my marriage and im finding it hard when i do see the doctor i change the subject or put on a face , im just at a loss what to do , when im lets say happy i get very irratable and get in trouble i talk too fast , cant sit still and concentration of a goldfish, sorry if im wasting anyones time

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plym33 said on 22 September 2011

i feel exactly what the symptoms state but when i feel down i just dont have the energy to even think of talking to anyone , i always think its wasting there time , iits affected my marriage and im finding it hard when i do see the doctor i change the subject or put on a face , im just at a loss what to do , when im lets say happy i get very irratable and get in trouble i talk too fast , cant sit still and concentration of a goldfish, sorry if im wasting anyones time

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whocares4me said on 07 September 2011

I'm 41 and for most of my life I've felt different, to extremes of being totally scared of life to feeling like a far superior being than I really am. I was abused sexually , physically and mentally by my mum and dad, I have attempted suicide on 5 occassions since M ay this year, according to Crisis I'm not in a crisis so they neglect me. I saw a psyciatrist for the first time 3 weeks ago and was promised support but up to now nothing, I visit out of hours regular because the nightmares at times are so bad (thank god for diazapan) T he gp told me I was just depressed in 1998, but why do I feel so different each day, from feeling high to holding my head in shame......when will someone take me serious...please help before the black clouds come over again and I attempt suicide again.........

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metroman123 said on 29 June 2011

I am reading these symptoms and am totally in shock, i thought for many years i was different to other people with thoughts, actions, mood swings, 1 minute on top of the world the next totally down and depressed, my self confidence has always been very low but on the outside im the funny guy who makes everyone laugh and is the centre of attention. I have done many terrible things to get these 'highs' but it has cost me my marriage and not being able to be a real father to my kids, now i live alone and have nothing. I thought i was suffering from stress/depression but reading this i am beginning to think bipolar now....I hate being like this!! someone please HELP

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sunbeam4him said on 01 May 2011

I have just read through the list of symtoms above relating to bipolar,and although i have most of them,my doctor and consultants have me on medication for anxiety/depression? If i could have a day where i don't go through not wanting to get up/wanting to,being indecisive about eating,feeling that my head will explode,that its full of pressure,that i dwell not on good words said about me or good things that have happened in my life,but constantly on every negative comment that has been said.Yes i have 'highs',and i see spiders everywhere and if i do sleep,i awake not knowing where i am,and think i see people ,and it frightens me. sometimes i just want to scream,other times i feel like i want to run around laughing. I don't understand me,and i feel my doctors don't want to hear or be bothered with me. Any suggestions?

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diamond14 said on 11 April 2011

My granddaughter has all the symptoms above but doctors have put it down to depression then said it was behavior problems after she attempted an overdose. how do i get her diagnosed?

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basthecat said on 22 February 2011

I've been treated for severe depression since the autum of 2005 with little success. Talking therapies just don't seem to work for me - that is if you ever get to see a counsellor. Eight months ago I got to see a 'Trick Cyclist" for the first time. He rebalanced my drugs regime and there was initially some improvement but in December 2010 my mind was back to it's old tricks - maybe worse - and again I started planning my suicide. I know exactly what I'm going to do. My care worker (bless her - she's usually as useful as a chocolate fireguard) noticed I was going downhill again and immediately arranged another appointment with Trick and I went to see him last week. He suggests I go on Lithum and arranges blood test etc. I come home and look up Lithium Carbonate on Tint-ernet and find it's used for the treatment of bi-polar / manic-deptression disorder. A little more digging and I find that the symptoms exactly match how I've been feeling for over 5 years. This makes me feel good - I'm in a manic phase, I guess. I do hope the Lithium works when I start taking it next week. What I do know is the Depressive phase is getting worse and my ability to cope with it has decreased over the years. It's a struggle - a real striuggle at times.

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samm1234 said on 25 January 2011

Im 19 years old and have had depression for a few years now, but as i look at this website i start to think if maybe i have bi-polar. I could really use someones help if they stuffer from this to help me understand the meaning behind it as i said earlier i have stuffered depression for a few years and i have never really understood why i stuffer from it and i don't know many people who do stuffer from depression and i have always found it hard to understand. So if any could help me i would really appreciate if somebody could have a talk with me to help me understand and figure out if i really do have bi-polar or such.

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Abby123 said on 13 December 2010

Hello, i dont suppose anyone can tell me if i have possible bipolar or not please?
I have all the symptoms and just recently i have been feeling extremely down, but then for a short period every couple of weeks i feel really great. Straight after that i feel suicidal and i feel worse than what i did before i felt happy. I am extremely paranoid aswell. I have been taken to the hospital before to have an examination when i had a break down, but the crisis team didnt help me at all they just sent me on my way. I just want answers and i just want to know if there is any help i can get?

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Igotquestions said on 09 December 2010

Hi all, Other than 'being delusional etc.' I tick all the boxes on the depression and mania side of bipolar symptoms and from everything I have read on here I think I have the disorder.

My questions are:
1. Life is up and down, for most people, some more ups than downs and visa-versa. Is it the extremes of the ups and downs that defines 'bipolar' as oppose to life just being life? Or...
2. Are the tests that are done to diagnose bipolar 100% yes/no conclusive?

Many thanks

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confuddled said on 04 December 2010

I am finding coping very difficult at the moment up and down like a yo-yo,

I have had depression for 14 plus years could be longer but I blank a lot of the past. Docs have tried various medication and treatment nothing has worked or i think im OK and stopping having treatment. Then i come crashing down and refuse to get help.

my husband and my best friend both have experience of friends and family with bi polar and both believe i am, I have very little idea about what bi polar is so i came and found this site.

I want to stop feeling like this. Its like a permanent black cloud, even when the sun shines i know its there waiting to come back.

I don't want to go to my gp i don't want another label i have had horrendous experiences of the mental health team. Does any one know of a herbal or natural treatment i could look at?

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Hotdog_GB said on 03 December 2010

Thanks to this site, every thing I've been going threw these last 4 years+ makes sense to me now. I know I've been suffering from depression for a number of years, from not being able to work and also a home carer for a young child with mental and physical special needs.

My depression got worse when My Mother (I was very close to) died and with in 11 months my Son also died at 14 suddenly from complications with his conditions, soon after my marriage of 22 years ended and we lost our home as well.

For the last four years I put all my mood swings ect down to the depression, but the last year or so my mood swings have changed. I can go for a few weeks feeling as though I'm on a high, buzzing.. Then the next day I'll be on such a low it feels like I'm some one else and this can last weeks on end, not sleeping,eating,going out of the house and thinking every one would be better of if I was not here any more and I'm just a burden to my friends and family.

To help me sleep I will start to drink to the point were I know I'm doing damage to myself, as if in a way to punish myself. Like I said this can go on for weeks and then suddenly I would over a day or two start to feel not good but not bad at the same time, and then it's this time I know I'm going back on a high again.

Knowing this has started to push me to go see a Doctor now.... just need to wait till I'm back on that high again.

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User499713 said on 06 November 2010

I am 18 and i've had depression since I can remember. I have recently been made aware of Bipolar disorder and I feel like this is exactly how my mind is , major ups then major downs (more downs thn ups) and I dont know what to do I have tried to talk to my GP but all he says is try councelling, which I have many times I dont know what to say to be heard because Im scared il do something stupid in the future :(

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RosieTalk said on 02 November 2010

Hi bridge1010. It is obvious to say that you should certainly speak to your GP if you feel like you cannot cope. There are also organisations that you can speak to:

# Samaritans 08457 90 90 90 www.samaritans.org.uk
# Sane 0845 767 8000 www.sane.org.uk
# Mind 0845 766 0163 www.mind.org.uk

You may find it useful to read the mental health blog for similar experiences:
http://talk.nhs.uk/blogs/mentalhealth/default.aspx

Or perhaps have a look at the Live Well mental health hub: http://www.nhs.uk/LiveWell/Mentalhealth/Pages/Mentalhealthhome.aspx

Take care, Rosie

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bridge1010 said on 02 November 2010

If that was taken off because of the word lucid dreams from someone who don't av a clue what it means it means knowing when your dreaming been awake in your dream look it up

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bridge1010 said on 02 November 2010

Hi gen86 I hope by now you have seen the doctor but if not I was the same I would clam up or forget to say about the different mood swings so what I did was write it all down over a period of a few days and just gave the list to my doctor. I have three young children and they have not been taken away. Since the age of fourteen I knew I was mentally unstable from thinkin I could be a witch to lashing out and havin lucid dreams and much more but I would also have long periods of being normal but for the past ten month its come and not gone away my lucid dreams are back and now I'm scared to sleep cos I hate knowing I'm dreaming n when I'm awake I have to keep pinching myself to make sure I'm not dreaming I've had enough now and don't know how much more I can take

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xlooxloox said on 11 October 2010

my aunty got diagnosis with bipolar 4 years ago and i remember how hard it hit her and how hard it hit the family and now 4 years down the line she is helping deal with the disorder, im only 16 years old and to be honest i dunno how i would deal with it without great surrport from the family.... they are my world xx

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Tweety1980 said on 01 October 2010

Hi Petebelle

My Mum is currently in hospital with a manic episode and reading this website I think she has bipolar disorder.

Throughout my childhood she was up and down, awful to my Dad and to my brother and I and generally made our childhoods pretty miserable.

I believe if she was diagnosed sooner (it's only in the last 3 years that she had a massive depressive episode and now this manic one) then things could have been very different.

My Dad finally left her about 6 years ago after a lifetime of misery which could have been avoided.

Things only get worse and I would get your husband to read this and get the treatment he needs - there are some pretty effective treatments and medications out there which will make things a lot easier for both of you.

Good luck.

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petebelle said on 25 September 2010

I am just researching on this because i observed from my husband's way of thinking and moods is all positive on all symptoms shown here on the manic and the depression phase except for the suicide thoughts because he have not discussed that with me before.. He already have seen several doctors to help him with the depression and for him his condition is not getting any better. He even put me aside after he decided to send me back to my hometown and he went to US alone. He always say he loves me and I know that he really does. Maybe he just do not want me to know about his medical conditions. I am his wife and I should be there with him to help him but he prefered to be on his own. He always say he has to fight his own battle alone. It hurts me being away from him, feeling like as if he dump me. But I tried to understand him and still keep loving him and wanting to be there with him. I just wait till he straighten his thoughts. He is smart and good control of himself. He is a good man and loving husband. Is there any cure for this problem?

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gen86 said on 15 September 2010

Hi, I dont know if anyone can help I think I may have bipolar and want to go to the doctor about it I am depressed and the doctors know but when I go to see them I dont tell them everything that I am feeling or thinking, I have 2 kids and am a single mum and it worries me that if i do tell them that i have suicidal thoughts they will take my kids away even though they are the only reason I have not followed through with the thoughts and may hurt myself but would never hurt them. So if anyone could advise me please????? Thanks!!

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gen86 said on 15 September 2010

Hi, I dont know if anyone can help I think I may have bipolar and want to go to the doctor about it I am depressed and the doctors know but when I go to see them I dont tell them everything that I am feeling or thinking, I have 2 kids and am a single mum and it worries me that if i do tell them that i have suicidal thoughts they will take my kids away even though they are the only reason I have not followed through with the thoughts and may hurt myself but would never hurt them. So if anyone could advise me please????? Thanks!!

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gen86 said on 14 September 2010

I wonder if anyone can help... I suffer from depression and have done for 9 years or more my mother is also severly depressed, I have noticed however in the last yr I have got worse and have what sound like bipolar one minute im happy the next i am extremely sad and have even hit walls bashed my head on things ect, I am going to the doctors in the next few weeks and want to tell the doctor exactly what im feeling however I have 2 small children and am on my own I dont want to loose my kids as they are the only things stopping me from following through with my suicidal thoughts, so my question is would or could my children be taken from me??? please help!!!!!

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Xena2317 said on 14 August 2010

Hello.
im really nervous about writing on here. ive never done anything like this before, but i guessed it was worth a try.

The reason im writing is because i am unsure of what to make of my emotions. About 8 years ago, maybe more, my parents split up, after hours of arguing and not being able to see my dad for months on end i think i bottled up plenty of emotions. About 4 years later i moved to my new secodary school, i thought i'd get a fresh start, but instead of the dream of being popular i ended up getting bullied. I didnt know what to do, i had no one to turn to, i though people would think i was pathetic and stuff. I started a stupid thing, i thought that cutting myself would relieve my pain and anger, i thought right, because it did, it made me feel tonnes better. I dont know what stopped me doing it though, i just did, even thought it was so addictive. After that, i turned to smoking, and i still am. Now instead, i have awful trouble getting to sleep at night, sometimes i wake up at about 4 in the morning and i just lie there thinking of nothing. Sometimes, i just feel so bummed out, i dont even want to get out of my bed, or go to school and if i do make it to school i dont have the energy to concentrate anymore. But other times, i am so ecstatic about everything, just like people have said on here. Its almost as if im 2 different people. the slightest thing anyone has said to me can pull me down and vice versa. I dont know what to do anymore? i dont want to ruin my education and my future because of this, and im too ashamed to go to my doctor, because most of the time im feeling normal when i finally have my appointment?
Somebody help! im very sorry for the huge essay. xx

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Peter Dant said on 05 August 2010

Katie I hope that you are still watching this site. To be fair it is not the best for chatting and advice.Try http://www.mdf.org.uk/ and register. Take your friends advice and see your doctor. Good luck !

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Peter Dant said on 04 August 2010

Katie (User 471588) - 12/07/2010
Hello mate.
There is no age limit for bipolar.
It can affect anyone so dont worry about that !
What you describe could well be it.
Take your friends advice because your friends know you better and see your doctor.
I hope that you still look at this site for a reply because you can be helped if you have it
Living with someone who does not want you there will not help so do your best to find somewhere else. You need support and are not getting it.Where in the country are you?

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needanswers said on 20 July 2010

Thank you to all who have posted. My partner recently has shown a pattern of behavior that has been cause for concern and which has devastated our relationship. I am trying to find ways to continue to help and support him and to understand what he is experiencing. Thank you for posting. For those who think it might be silly, it is not. Instead it helps us who want to be supportive to our loved ones to better understand. Thank you and keep posting.

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User471588 said on 12 July 2010

i feel alittle silly coming on here and leaving my comment. you see i have these really low moments where i feel really sad, and hate my life but then something happens and a few hour/days later and im fine, im happy again... i think that i just start feeling sorry for myself, coz im dyslexic and am never gonna have a good job! i live with someone who hates me being there but i have no where else to go, i have no love in my life witch makes me go looking for it but all i find are one night stands and that makes me feel even worse.... all my friends have said i must just feel sorry for myself and i think they are right, however i have this new friend and she thinks i have bipolar or despression and keeps on at me about going to the doctors, but i think the doctor will just think im making it up and laugh at me coz im only 21, im young, and young people have nothing to worry about right??

well id like ur opinions my friend said i should write it all down n get a second opinion, from people who have it! hope to hear from someone! many thanks for reading this katie xo

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shadowwalker said on 16 June 2010

I have Bipolar, I want to write about my feeling and how i feel while going through my mood shifts but can't! I am feeling that what ever i write people who read it will laugh. I cant talk to my husband abt any of my feelings because he doesnt understand any of it. He know's i have it but hasnt even bothered to find out abt what it is or anything.

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allie1971 said on 10 June 2010

dear meow, I have bi polar it has taken nearly 25 yrs for me to be diagnosed!! I was adopted and last yr i found my biological dad he also has bi polar it is said to be hereditary i was abut 13 when it first started to show itself trouble with that is most teenagers are ellated one min and next their bouncing off the walls so its hard to diagnose and also if your given anti psychotics and you dont have bi polar it can actually trigger it, it has been a major factor in recking my life relationships etc. please hunni I urge you to see your gp you must get help!!! be honest write a list of words that describe your feelings when u are at your happiest n again at your worst do not hold back tell him the severity of how you feel its easy to do this cause one day ur so down you ring ur gp begging for help n by the time u actually see them u feel like u was makin a fuss about nothing (a storm in a tea cup) but it prob wasnt . stay safe sweetie xx hope this helps abit x

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meow said on 10 April 2010

I think I may have bipolar disorder, but I am unsure because when I feel sad people say I am just feeling sorry for myself and that I could be muuch worse off. I remember feeling depressed as a child. I have slit my wrists a few times, taken overdoses, smashed my head against a wall and pruposefully put myself in dangerous situations hoping someone will kill me. I think I halucinated once when I was really depressed because I had no money for food and I thought I could see aliens and spirits, this was happening to me for about a week. When I am in a relationship and we have a fight I find it really hard to cope and start drinking, taking drugs and one time I tried getting heroin to kill myself. I am in fear of what other people think about me and other time when I feel happy and people call me crazy or weird I say I am proud of it but if I feel sad I am really ashamed of it. I find it hard working in places because I find it hard to be told what to do without being upset that they are being mean to me or I think my boss thinks I am stupid all the time and get worked up and end up leaving. Normally I do try really hard but when I first start a job it takes me a while to remember everything so I get called slow which really hurts my feelings. I think this sounds like bipolar but I want to know how can I overcome it without medication or doctors? I just want to be able to control my emotions.

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IAmElement said on 08 February 2010

Read the next section on causes...

http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Bipolar-disorder/Pages/Causes.aspx

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maggiekate said on 10 January 2010

My friends child has been told that the have bipolar. As I know nothing about this disorder I have been looking on the internet. Please can you tell me if it is possible that bipolar can be brought on by a major experience in their life.

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